I might be a pedophile. Would anyone miss me?

I'm... not sure how to respond to this thread, at the moment.

Um, on the subject of my sexuality. It's very sexually confusing. When I tell people what I'm attracted to in women, if they don't call me a pedophile, sometimes they think I'm just attracted to men. But when I tell people what I'm attracted to in men, they tell me I'm a pedophile, or that I'm attracted to women.

Some things I'm attracted to seem both very associated with women and children. Like high pitched voices. The types of voices I'm attracted to are like this(NSFW picture) and this. That's the opposite of masculine.

A lot of things associated with children seem associated with femininity, it seems like...
Sometimes I feel like maybe I'm not a real bisexual. Because some things I like are so feminine. Feminine voices means more high pitched, right? So being attracted to super high pitched, childlike voices, means I'm attracted to the very very very and the most feminine voices, right?

And I'm also attracted to petite bodies. Like, not big, broad shoulders, and things like that.
But I'm also very attracted to shotas. And shotas can be just as cute as lolis. Especially if they were frilly dresses, and do things to present themselves in a feminine fashion. Shotas can be so adorable, I have a hard time wondering if I'm more attracted to lolis or shotas. They're both so similar. They both have nice body types that are almost the same as each other. And at least shotas aren't going to be drawn to have breasts and curves, like lolis sometimes are. Though sometimes, it's just the opposite with shotas, sometimes they're drawn to look too masculine. For me, at least.

I feel like I am a bisexual, but it's very confusing. And some things I'm attracted to seem very very feminine, while some other things seem masculine. If I'm not a pedophile, I hope I'm not a pedophile. Maybe I have some kind of sexual orientation that is attracted to people outside of the gender binary, or something like that? I don't know... I don't know if I'm a pedophile.. I don't know what to call my sexuality, exactly...

Yeah sorry about that.

I'm attracted to both women and boys aged 11-15. I like thin, short arms and legs, lack of hair, small stature and higher voices. I find their higher voices very soothing and arousing. I guess technically you are still bisexual if you are attracted to both males and females despite you preferring both to be quite feminine.

I think I did have something to tell you but I kind of forgot so I'm not sure if this even helpful at all.