paranoid about being a peodopile

just wanted to get this off my chest but was scared to talk to anyone about and its been eatin away at me so unhealthly ive been addicted to porn for years now and felt I wanted to search for teen porn alltime when I was drunk but then wen I done when I was sobre took it to another level and feel so ashamed of meself but its ther on the internet for the takin and cdn help it feel terrible that I got off on it ive smashed loads of hard drives myself in fear of getting found out not that I ever downloaded it just searched for It wen I was drunk I cant live my life ther must be loads of people that's done it and are scared to talk to people about it can eat you alive its not nice that wer givin this sort of thing wen we cant deal with it

OK, dude, calm down.

We all give into temptation once in a while but if you feel this bad about it then you can't be a bad person regardless of how the thing actually was.

Even one venture into child erotica is too many if you want to lead a life free from paranoia but when you look at the news people are rarely if ever arrested for downloading a handful of images. It's usually thousands.

In short, don't beat yourself up. You were dealt a bad hand and my advice would be to go to a sex addicts group to get over your addiction to pornography.

Take care and if you want to talk any time, message me.