Wish I knew of a place like this before.....I

I really wish I knew of a place like this before I started to molest young children because it really seems to me that so many people care for other people that are total strangers and I think that is amazing and so cool. I never had people that I could chat with or get help with the feelings that I have and I am not sure if that would have prevented me from actually doing what I was doing with kids. I molested kids because I think I felt alone on the way that I was feeling and i thought the answer was to actually molest children and to this day I regret everything that I have done with children and I kick myself every day wishing it would have been different.

I served my time in prison and what not but I sometimes don't think that was enough because it hasn't changed what I did to the children that I have hurt. I say to all those that are thinking about crossing that line with children please don't do it, talk to someone here and if that is not a solution to help you stop then I say turn yourself into the police department and tell them what you are about to do, if they don't arrest you or let you stay overnight then that police dept is screwed up. Or go to a mental hospital and tell them that you are a danger to yourself as well as children. There are always solutions to prevent from ruining a childs life forever.

Just my two cents

You are not the only one Howard I posted similar myself about this place before.

In fact one the questions I was asked during my interview with the police was why did I not seek help before if I wanted to stop, and my answer was I did not know where to turn for help or how to discuss it with anyone not even family members.

Apparently help was easy to find according the officer, but it didn't seem at the time I could ever have told anyone who might understand or feel the same way I did or even realise that it did not mean I was abuser and the fact of being scared that I would get thrown in jail if ever told anyone of what I was involved in.

But hindsight is a wonderful thing, we learn from our mistakes even when it is the hard way.

That sucks. I am glad I found this places and many others so I could understand what I am.

So what do you think of looking at pictures ? Clothed pictures of children. Is that bad to do ?

Neverfeelaccepted wrote:That sucks. I am glad I found this places and many others so I could understand what I am.

So what do you think of looking at pictures ? Clothed pictures of children. Is that bad to do ?

What people think really does not matter imo, it depends on what the laws are in your country, over here being in possession or looking at pictures like that can still be considered for sexual gratification and just as bad in the eyes of the law as actual CP as I understand it.

I'd look at life before access to videos of underage girls and find that I had plenty of trouble then and none now. I'd be in jail for "sexual harassment" or something else that happens when unwanted men seek to fulfill their sexual desires with actual women.
As long as there's no nudity, no sexual activity, the girls are making the videos on their own or for a legitimate model agency (like Next) or entertainment purposes (like Polished), you're not recording the videos, and you're not asking the girls to make the videos the risks are pretty slim. You're already giving up a lot by not accessing actual CP.