Song that describes your paraphilia?

Do you have a song that makes you think about your paraphilia?
Like, your mentality and/or your fantasies ?

If you want you could write what your paraphilia is, and why you relate to the song.

Mine is Skin by Grimes.
I am a necrophiliac and I can relate to the song because I feel like I need these fantasies for me to feel human. Without them I wouldn't feel anything. It also describes how I suffer from the paraphilia and how I want the dead people to stay with me forever.

The song is really about a girl who is sad because she's going through a break up.




Here are the lyrics:
Soft skin,
you touch me within and so I know I could be human once again.
I know your face holds something that could consume you completely.
Soft skin,
you touch me once again and somehow it stings
‘cause I know it is the end
I hate that you’re leaving, so why don’t you talk to me?
You act like nothing ever happened but it meant the world to me.

And you can’t, and you can’t see the wind in the trees.
And you can’t, and you can’t see the wind in the leaves,
and you can’t, and you can’t see the weight in the dark.
And you can’t, and you can’t see the weight in the heart.
(These were our …).

Soft skin.
I’ll have you be near my heart until I feel human.
Soft skin, oh.
You were never in love to begin with so now I’m suffering.

Oh you can’t, and you can’t see the wind in the trees.
And you can’t, and you can’t see the wind in the leaves.
And you can’t, and you can’t see the weight in the dark.
And you can’t, and you see the weight in the heart.
(These were our…).

Soft skin,
you touch me within and so I know I could be human once again.
I know your face holds something that could consume you completely.
Soft skin,
you touch it once again and somehow it stings
‘cause I know it is end.
I hate that you’re leaving so why don’t you talk to me?

Paint it Black
Everything about it screams how I feel most days.

"Paint It Black"

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors any more, I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by, dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a newborn baby, it just happens every day

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door I must have it painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facing up when your whole world is black

No more will my green sea gord turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
My love will laugh with me before the morning comes

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors any more, I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by, dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

Hmm, hmm, hmm,..

I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black

Yeah!

Hmm, hmm, hmm...

Sweet Child o Mine

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Sweet Child o Mine

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Sweet Child o Mine

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Sweet Child o Mine

Heh, interesting thread.

So I have many paraphilias and fetishes....

Necrophilia:
Suicide Commando - Necrophilia
This is pretty self-explanatory. The lyrics are very explicit and explicitly talk about wanting to have sex with a corpse.

HIM - Kiss of dawn
This song has something to do with death, maybe just symbolically, but even before knowing I'm a necrophile, I associated it with confused necrophilic feelings.

My Dying Bride - For my fallen angel
One of the most romantic songs ever written and it totally relates to me, since I'm more of a romantic, spiritual type of necrophiliac.

"As I draw up my breath,
and silver fills my eyes.
I kiss her still,
for she will never rise.

On my weak body,
lays her dying hand.
through those meadows of heaven,
where we ran.

Like a thief in the night,
the wind blows so light.
it wars with my tears,
that won't dry for many years.

Love's golden arrow
at her should have fled,
and not death's ebon dart
to strike her dead."
Sometimes it's not the lyrics but just the general atmosphere and music that make me think about certain things. MDB songs make me think about death all the time, but in a romantic, idolizing way.

Sadism/blood:
Slayer - Bloodline


Drugs/unconsciousness:
Psyclon Nine - As you sleep

HOWEVER, no other song on earth describes my paraphilic life in a more accurate way than this one:
Ozzy Osbourne - Gets me through
I can totally relate to this. First, the part where it says "I'm not the kind of person you think I am, I'm not the Anti-Christ or the Iron Man" could refer to how I'm not the kind of person the media or and general population think I am...especially the "I'm not the Anti-Christ" could refer to how I've been accused of Satanism in my teen years. I'm not the figure created by the media that you see all the time, I'm just human.

"I have a vision that I just can't control, I feel I've lost my spirit and sold my soul". The vision I can't control is a fantasy. I feel like I'm not in total control of what I think about, and I feel I've lost my mind and sold my soul = not exactly sold my soul to the devil, it's more of a reference to just losing my soul, my purity, all the good in me, symbolically sold my soul to evil thoughts. This is how I used to feel all the time months ago, now things got better and I'm more accepting of myself.

"I try to entertain you the best I can" sarcastic reference to the image portrayed by the media. This could refer to sadism and murders, used for entertainment in movies, but also necrophilia, distorted by the media and used for purposes of shock and entertainment.

"I wish I started walking before I ran" not sure how this would fit, but it could refer to how fast I am going, how fast I'm finding out more about myself, so I wish I walked first, finding out things more slowly.

"But I still love the feeling I get from you, I hope you never stop cause it gets me through" again sarcastic, this could be interpreted as something said by me to mock the entertainment industry: I love the importance you give me, keep doing it because it pumps me up and keeps me going. Reversed meaning of the original concept of the song where Ozzy thanks his fans (yay!)

"The feelings that I hide behind, sometimes reality is unkind" I'm hiding everything inside, you have no idea of all the feelings I hold in my heart. Reality is unkind, reality hides but at the same time shows my pain. It's not fair I have to deal with all of this.

"The nightmares stalk for me at night, I dread the long and lonely nights" my fantasies show up during my lonely nights and haunt me, they give me nightmares, they're violent and bloody. I fear loneliness, I fear those nights when I can't sleep and I'm alone in my room dealing with my fantasies of violence.


"I'm not the kind of person you think I am
I'm not the Anti-Christ or the Iron Man
I have a vision I just can't control
I feel I've lost my spirit and sold my soul
Got no control

I try to entertain you the best I can
I wish I started walking before I ran
But I still love the feeling I get from you
I hope you never stop cause it gets me through

The feelings that I hide behind
Sometimes reality's unkind
The nightmares stalk for me at night
I dread the long and lonely nights

I'm just trying to live"

P.S.: I have some other paraphilias, like pedophilia, but I can't think of songs that make me think of those ones

The Eels - Hey Man (Now You're Really Living)

Do you know what it's like to care too much
'bout someone that you're never gonna get to touch
Hey man, now you're really living

Sort of joke answer because it's so obvious, but. . .

Oingo Boingo - Little Girls.

On the other hand, the lyrics actually do describe pretty well the life of someone like me who is a nonexclusive pedophile.

Interesting thread indeed, and some suggestions for me to check out! Mine would be Billy Joel's "The Stranger", which can probably fit to just about any paraphilia. It's all about masks and dual identities, and basically talks about how we have parts of ourselves which we just don't tell anyone about ever.

Black Light Burns - Cruel Melody
YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=omktVIJD0iA
AZlyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/blacklig ... elody.html

For all of the million trillions combined.

Lil Red Riding Hood - Sam the Sham and the Pharaohs

Lyrics: http://www.oldielyrics.com/lyrics/sam_the_sham_and_the_pharaohs/lil_red_riding_hood.html

Many lines in this song are SO identifiable to me as a pedophile, especially the duality of the wolf in sheep's clothing wanting to be good, but can't because of his wolf nature.

As someone posted a while ago, nothing quite seems to resonate with me quite as much as "Behind Blue Eyes"