I think I'm a pedophile...How can I block out the thoughts?

I'm 17 and I am starting to think I'm a pedophile. I guess it all started when I was around twelve(Or at least that's the first time I remember having thoughts about small children)
I would NEVER rape anyone, I'd rather die than do that.
It usually happens when I'm already aroused(Like from people my age and older) and the thoughts about children and doing things to them come in. I really hate it!!!!! I almost tried to do something once(When I was 13) but was able to stop myself!
I'm too scared to tell anyone(other than over the internet because it's anonymous but even with this it's taken me a while to speak up)
I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, bi polar, and OCD in the past.
I don't know if these things have anything to do with it, but I decided to add them just in case.
I just want to be normal! Can someone please help me?!?

There's no normalcy avalible, I'm afraid. There are things you can do to improve your impulse control, but if you are sexually oriented toward children, there's no treatment that can make that go away.

YouthRightsRadical wrote:There's no normalcy avalible, I'm afraid. There are things you can do to improve your impulse control, but if you are sexually oriented toward children, there's no treatment that can make that go away.

I know that I can't change what I'm attracted to. BUT I think that if I can just find some way to mmake sure the thoughts stay thoughts, and don't become actions, I could live a somewhat normal life.
I am attracted to young children but also people my age. I even have a GF that I care about a lot.
I'm just scared that one day the thoughts will take over and I'll do something.
Could you tell me some ways to
Sorry that I'm kinda ranting. My thoughts are all over the place ATM.

I can tell you that it's easier than most people think. I've lived with this for years without ever really being in any meaningful danger of my thoughts "taking over". I don't molest kids for largely the same reason most people don't rape.

I know you're afraid, and I understand why. You've been told over and over again that's just the inevidable outcome for people who have sexual thoughts about children. But that isn't true.

Like I said, I've been living a pretty normal life, and I'm in my 30s at this point. No significant other on my end, but that's about it as far as me "not living a normal life".