gruesome thoughts and such

Due to recent events over the past several months in my life, I've started to write a lot more than I used to. Writing has always been my outlet. Its basically what has kept me sane more times than I can count...what I have been writing has been progressively getting more intense...disturbing...gruesome.
I like blood, vore, kids, snuff, fire and sharp things...put that together in a work of fiction and well, sometimes the thoughts in my head freak me out. I know its ok as long as its not taking over my life and as long as I don't act on it...but is it wrong for me to wish for just once that Pandora's box could be resealed and that these thoughts could just be eradicated from my brain space? Ugh I am just frustrated. I don't even know how I would explain any of this to a therapist even if I could. And I really don't have anyone to talk to about this sort of thing.


Anyways, thoughts, input and positive vibes are greatly appreciated.

Twisted

It's good to hear that writing helps.

It would be easy if we could wipe out our weird bits, but all these things are what make people interesting. So, chin up, and keep writing.

As someone who has given in to
Terrible ideas before, it's fantastic to see people not giving in:).

Thanks.
personally at this point in my life, I would prefer to not be interesting. I spend a lot of time trying to embrace who and what I am with all my ridiculous quirks and proclivities . But there does come a point thought where I am basically like ###$ everything, I can't handle being in my own head right now.
I guess I just need to learn to deal with this stuff better somehow...ugh

-- Fri Mar 14, 2014 6:58 am --

Thanks.
personally at this point in my life, I would prefer to not be interesting. I spend a lot of time trying to embrace who and what I am with all my ridiculous quirks and proclivities . But there does come a point thought where I am basically like ###$ everything, I can't handle being in my own head right now.
I guess I just need to learn to deal with this stuff better somehow...ugh