USteenrdm wrote:One of my best friends is a girl and she used to really like me a lot, maybe even loved me, but I really messed things up with her because of something I did because of my urges. I have trouble controlling myself around her often. I'll have periods of having no attraction to her at all and then one night I wont be able to control myself. Luckily she stops me most of the time but when she doesn't I feel terrible but eventually she forgives me. I feel like if I can't find a way to help myself soon that she wont continue being friends with me and she is the only friend I have (currently going to an independent learning program).
I looked into getting a chemical castration via depo provera but I am worried about having feminizing effects. I don't think I could talk to a doctor or even a therapist about what I've done or about getting depo provera. I was thinking about having her order it and having her inject it if it's a possibility. Does this sound like a good idea? I've looked around online and many people say that it's helped them. I want to make sure it's reversible if it's ever a possibility that I could have children with her. Thank you guys in advance for your input!
Dude... buddy... hold up just a second now. Do NOT go shooting sparrows with cannons. Reducing your testosterone levels will lead to an imbalance leading to what you would perceive as feminizing effects, such as a lower libido but maybe also other things as this is individual.
I see your dilemma, which sucks! No doubt about that! But have you thought about giving therapy a chance? Anonymous phonelines? Self-control excersises?
I'm just in the opinion that chemical castration shouldn't be fluffed around with like it was tic-tacs!
My advice? Have you two set up a meeting and talk stuff out. Plan the meeting well ahead, ask eachother what you enjoy from eachothers presence, make lists and give them to eachother and from this list, you will see the things she likes about you, but that you will lose should you one day go too far. Explain to her how you feel, tell her the thoughts you've been having and try to solve it together as a team!
If the above mentioned works you will have had a chance to improve your friendship, you will have gained an ally in combating what seems to be a very powerful libido and you will have avoided the long term complications of chemical treatment. If the talk doesn't work, then that's a problem for tomorrow.
Give it a shot man

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