immediate and effective way to stop fantasies???

Ok, now it seems like the thought process is getting out of control. I spend all night awake fantasizing and sometimes even pleasure myself to orgasm. And I really mean all night, and then the day after and the night after. It is getting out of control I feel like screaming, fantasies are getting way too intense and frequent it's like having a hammer hitting my brain all the time, I get aroused all the time and nothing seems enough. I wanna sleep but intense fantasies keep me awake and I swear I really want to sleep and feel like I am unable to. It is like a compulsion. I get urges to look for sexual (legal) stuff on the internet like erotic stories and fantasies, I am even starting to watch porn (adult, legal) frequently. It is getting addictive, but the worst part is my fantasies of course. They are too intense and arouse me everytime. It's been two days I am obsessed, really.
Isn't there a way to just sedate myself immediately and fall asleep?
I got benzos here and I am taking them and no I am not taking too much dont worry.
I need to wake up early tomorrow and I need to rest but sex sex sex sex sex this word is haunting my mind, it's images running through my head quickly, scenes of sex with the little girls I am attracted to, scenes of sex and sex is all I think about and no doing other things doesn't help. I have tried watching movies, listening to music and nothing works because sex is breathing on my neck like a stalker.
I go to the bathroom in the dark with just a weak light in it? I picture myself having brutal sex with the little girl I text (I will call her A from now on). I go to the kitchen and yes I picture me having sex on the table. I look out the window? It's sex in the dark streets. I stay in my bedroom? Of course I think of sex. And if I'd lock myself in the closet it would still be sex because oh what a nice fantasy having sex in a closet!
Especially tonight, everything just invokes a sexual atmosphere. I could go anywhere, I would think of sex. I could lock myself up in a dark room, it would not kill my fantasies....what's better than sex in complete dark? See? I am helpless and hopeless.
Who's the object of fantasies? A. Sometimes also the girl I saw this summer.

So I should try with benzodiazepines. Also, I am getting a compulsive hunger.

Sorry but I needed to let it all off my chest. I really do feel like shouting.

Hang in there, man. Thinking of you.

I desperately wish I had an answer for you. This actually sounds like a major medical issue at this point.

Hmm, do you think it could be treated in a therapy environment, like any obsession?
(I mean the obsessive nature, not the actual paraphilias).

Like OCD maybe? Hmmm.

skeleton-countess wrote:Hmm, do you think it could be treated in a therapy environment, like any obsession?
(I mean the obsessive nature, not the actual paraphilias).

Like OCD maybe? Hmmm.

I do actually have OCD. Tonight I spent like 20 minutes washing my hands....

Meds could help reduce the stress but fantasies remain, those are parts of my sexuality. I know this because last year when I took antidepressants ans benzos to treat OCD and ddpression, I still had the urge to read about sexual things and all...depression faded away, OCD got slightly better but fantasies were there.

The only way seems to get immediate sleep when these attacks come.

Now that I took benzodiazepines I feel slightly better, like more relaxed....

I hope you get the sleep you need.

YouthRightsRadical wrote:I hope you get the sleep you need.

I'm waiting for the meds to have their effect. But it sucks how I need to take such "urgent measures".

Yeah, it does. You really need to figure out how to manage this. Somehow. I wish I had better advice.

I would suggest telling a doctor about ALL the symptoms you're having, including the paranoia and everything, maybe except for the sexual ones. Maybe you could tell them you are having constant thoughts that disturb you AND KEEP YOU AWAKE TWO NIGHTS IN A ROW, and if they ask more, say you don't want to talk about it? Tell them EVERYTHING, except for the fact that you're a pedophile if you don't want to. They could prescribe you antipsychotics, if they do try taking them and see what they do.

Of course I mean do it if you haven't already done it.