switching, altered state of mind

I have no real helpful things to say for this topic. I've come to realize I'm a one trick pony with my advice , but I will say that what you are experiencing seems perfectly normal to me. Lots of people switch between states of mind depending on how they feel. If you want to control these parts of you, accept them. Don't vilify the parts of you that others or even yourself might view as harmful. Vilification and repression only leads to explosive outbursts later on. It doesn't sound like you are doing this too much, but I can tell you from personal experience that repression does not end well. Acceptance does not mean making whatever the thing is a part of your daily life and acting on it. It means allowing it to exist inside yourself. Being aware of yourself allows you to have control and allows you to keep yourself in check far better than hiding parts of your mind away.

Well, whether you feel like that post was helpful or not, the way you talk about how self-acceptance works and what it means puts into words something I've felt for a while, more eloquently than I think I've ever managed.

I agree with blazing, but I'd say I fear myself, rather than not accept myself. I might even accept myself but this does not erase the fear of myself, if it makes sense.

Oh ok, I guess I kind of put fear of self and not accepting one's self in the same boat. But I can see how they would be two different ideas. I don't really have a whole lot of experience with people who fear some part of themselves, so I can't really help in this area that much. However, I think I put the two ideas together because with acceptance comes understanding and from understanding comes courage. If you understand yourself, you have no reason to be afraid of it. This is why I'm always saying that you should work more on accepting the parts of you that you don't like. Even accepting them is the first step toward changing them.