something really embarrassing (may trigger?)

hi

im a paedophile and im finally at peace with that now, i don't think im a pervert or anything

but, im realising something else,

i was playing some game that was really gory, and i felt really aroused
so i thought that was gross, but got over it

then i saw a picture of some women who was raped, and had some wounds on her, and felt arousal

then i saw a picture of a bloody women was in a car crash, and i felt instant arousal,
just thinking about something like that gets me really aroused

is there something wrong with me?,
is this sadistic?

thanks, im really embarrassed

Hey. Don't be embarrassed on this forum. Okay?

It's probably the sight of the blood, and the horrific situations these women were in. There's a natural survival mechanism triggered by seeing carnage, that gets the adrenalin running and the heart pumping faster. It can also be accompanied by a primal instinct to make more babies, hence the surprise arousal.

No need to be embarrassed, were all here for embarrassing reasons we would rather not share with the whole world and want to deal with in our own private lives.

hi

thank you for the responses,
i feel really weird about it,
your right, maybe its just a survival instinct, one that i do not want

thanks very much for this guys,

thanks
Frankie

Pictures are just that, pictures. A real life person has emotions, they cry, smile, love and dislike: pictures don't do that. You might get aroused by brutality in pictures but that is a big difference than actually doing it.

Thanks for being open and honest.

Agreed, I think as long as you don't want to brutalize someone in real life, you're all right