Are your fantasies an obstacle for your daily life?

Do your fantasies and desires make you live an abnormal life? Do they represent some kind of impairment, especially in social situations?
Does your paraphilia make you feel like you're out of the world, alone and how does it affect your life day by day?
What are your most recurrent fantasies and how each one of them affect you?

My pedophilia makes me isolate, lock myself up in the room to be free to write here and research and study about it, to sleep, rest, fantasize, even dream of my desires. It results in social withdrawal, something that is evident, I've always been very introverted but now social withdrawal in me is much more evident and it's evident I hide something, I think.
After all, how could I, an exclusive pedophile and hebephile, be a normal person, act normal and be just like anybody else? It's hard to just be very extroverted and social and stuff.
It's not just my paraphilia isolating me from the others, I' also have autistic traits as even my psychologist said, I am sure I got high-functioning autism so that is the cause of me wanting to always be in my own little world, far from the others who are often unwanted by me.
Well, exclusive pedophilia certainly plays an important role contributing to impairments in my life, together with other fantasies/fetishes revolving around it, such as the syringes fetish I talked about in some posts, all abnormal things that make my life just...hard.

I'd like to read more about how your paraphilia, in general, or even a single fetish or fantasy affects your daily life, whether in a positive or negative way.

I live my normal daily life everyday, never having the thoughts that have gone on inside my head, I can function as a perfectly normal person doing normal daily things. It was only when I was at home alone the mind started to wander onto things it shouldn't.

Now since I have cut all ties to the CP I was viewing the thoughts are pretty much non existent now. Just a shame it took me so long to figure things out and to get arrested to stop the bad habit.

I do have other personal issues that do affect my daily life and the things I do or don't do because of them, but they don't really stop me from living a fairly normal life.

My pedophilia causes me some serious setbacks now and then, shame, guilt, despair, but I'm learning to turn it into something positive. For quite a while I was trying to force the pedophilia out of me by completely denying any sexual thought that ever entered my head with a child as the subject. That phase lasted a couple months, and I nearly lost my grip on reality. I no longer felt like I was myself. I can't even begin to explain the weird and uncomfortable state that my mind entered into when I rejected my attraction to kids. It was hell. I've since decided to accept that my pedophilia might just be with me for the rest of my life. So instead of pretending that it will go away if I ignore it, I will figure out how to lessen the negative impact it has on my life.

While I am sexually attracted to little girls, I am also emotionally attracted to them. I just think they're beautiful, lovely, and their smiles give me the warm fuzzies inside. I'm not sure if my feelings are romantic or parental or whatever, but it's something special for sure. Something I don't feel for adults or even young boys. Only girls. I actively work to promote those kinds of emotional thoughts while letting the sexual thoughts occupy as small a space in my mind as possible. I fantasize a lot about having a daughter (sometimes a little sister, or even other scenarios where I might find myself in the presence of little girl). She's almost like an imaginary friend that I can just pretend is there when I'm feeling bad about something and don't have anywhere else to turn. I have a blanket in my bed that I wrap my arms around for comfort, and I've gotten into the habit of pretending its a little girl, sleeping soundly. It's very relaxing and yet powerful.

My fantasies rarely turn sexual, and if they do, I try not to dwell on them for too long. Just long enough to take care of business, if you know what I mean. Whenever I let the sexual thoughts have too much influence on me, I become depressed, stressed, and in need of a release. But when I focus on my LOVE for little girls, all of those problems go away and life becomes pleasant once more.

With my humiliation paraphilia my fantasies can be distracting when I'm out in public, I have trouble concentrating. For example, I will see a beautiful woman and the humiliation fantasies begin, I will think about how she probably has a good looking boyfriend who has a much bigger penis than I do and this sexually arouses me. I have another fantasy of talking to a beautiful woman and telling her that I'm gay to humiliate myself. I'm not really gay but I enjoy the humiliation of people perceiving that I'm gay. I live in the Southern U.S. where it is still considered humiliating for a man to be gay so I've incorporated this societal aspect into my humiliation fantasies.