Am I a Pedophile?

I am either on the low end of the spectrum or I'm not a pedophile at all. My therapist does not know at this time. I was open to all the tough questions she asked and I was real with her. This may take a few sessions. I am not rushing anything. I want her to have all of the time she needs to be certain and I want the truth even if I do not like the truth.

I told her this is top priority.

Is this as important as questioning my salvation? No but it does come in second.

I don't think you're a pedophile. It sounds like you don't really want to possess the children. You want to BE the children. You seem to get exited by the fantasy of becoming a little girl. This borders on the lines of infantalism. NOT pedophilia. Those two paraphillias are in two separate arenas.

I have known my parents have been planning to move to Florida since June of this year, likely even before then. This past Saturday, when they came over, they surprised me by telling me they want me to come live with them in Florida.

I have a hard time putting it into words how surprised I am by this, given everything that has happened in the past. Don't get me wrong. My parents are upstanding Protestant Christians. When I had a tooth ache, Mom volunteered to pay for all the dental work and even picked out the dentist, which I am appreciative of. However, our relationship has not gone much past this. We have a better relationship on Facebook than we do in the physical world.

You can see why I am surprised that my mom wants me to live under her roof. I have a reason to believe Mom has read this thread.