Update to my situation.

Well I answered my bail today and was reinterviewed regarding what they found on my computers. I asked for a solicitor today as I never had one the first time, so I spent a couple of hours in a cell, everything taken from me including my shoes and my tracksuit bottoms as they had a cord in the waistband, given some crappy overalls to wear, left to lie on a piece of concrete with the crappiest mattress and pillow made of god knows what and about as comfortable as nothing. I was then interviewed and have been re bailed for a couple of weeks. I will be going back to be charged with possessing and downloading indecent images and will be going to court, because of how many they found it will go to court, but as I have admitted it from the start there will not be a trial, and hopefully that and the fact I have never ever been in trouble before in my life with the police should also help. At the least I will be getting a suspended sentence or prison time, hopefully by showing remorse and the fact I am trying to get help and have changed my ways I can avoid going to prison. I still have bail conditions obviously and there is the stuff to deal with as it will most likely get reported by the local rag. The way I am looking at it is if I get a suspended sentence then it is basically the nearest to be being given a second chance at life, and I intend to grab onto it for dear life. I will never ever go back to that way of life, just sitting in the cell at the police station was horrible, I can't imagine being locked up all day like that.

So there you go if you want a good reason to not look at CP then that is it.

Feeling really quite awful tonight but also slightly relieved now I have a clearer picture of what is going to happen to me, I have to accept that whatever the outcome is I will have to deal with it somehow.

Please don't make the same mistakes I have made.

What's your solicitor like, Airwolf?

I really wish I could write to the magistrates and put in a good word for you, but I suspect the word of a necrophile called Graveyard, from an internet forum might not be all that helpful.

You've got to make sure they know that you're a good character, and that you've put all that crap well behind you. I really hope your solicitor can see that, and will do his or her best for you.

Hopefully so Graveyard, she said she has dealt with a few cases like mine and most have ended up with a suspended sentence. I will make sure they know my full character not just that part, I have done a lot of good stuff in my life too, never ever been in trouble with the law before either.

My mum wants to write a letter and hopefully a few other friends might be able to give me references that might help.

Will just have to see what happens and deal with it.

I appreciate your wish you could help me but yes probably would not go down that well as you say.

And that you extend help to others...

Thanks for posting in my topic. And then I came upon this thread by you, and very timely for me too

DowntownGirl wrote:And that you extend help to others...

Thanks for posting in my topic. And then I came upon this thread by you, and very timely for me too

Thanks for the comment it means a lot. One thing I want to come out of this mess I got myself in it's too help others not make the mistakes I have made.

I wish you good luck, buddy.

Hopefully your thread helps people understand a few things.

ElKahn wrote:I wish you good luck, buddy.

Hopefully your thread helps people understand a few things.

Thank you.

I just hope anyone reading my posts can realise how dangerous it is and stop, that's all I want.

Wow..I'm really sorry this is happening to you. But it's good that you're sharing your story with others as a cautionary tale.

xoPinkerbelleox wrote:Wow..I'm really sorry this is happening to you. But it's good that you're sharing your story with others as a cautionary tale.

thanks for caring and seeing there is another side to someone than just one thing, I want to share my story to help others get help and resolve their problems, if things had been different and I had handled things better in my younger years I very much doubt I would have done what I have and I would very likely not be in the position I am in now. But what ifs are no good, the future is what matters and making the most of it.

We all make mistakes in life, but people who genuinely learn from them deserve a second chance.

Not only have you learned from your mistakes, but hopefully your experiences posted on here will help other people who were in the same boat as you to get their lives on a better track.