My girlfriend broke up with me last night. Fear not – this is not a sympathy seeking thread. I don’t care about the break up, I’d been bored for a while so it was going to end sooner or later but my issue is why the break happened.
For those of you who haven’t seen my thread about my paraphilia, I’m a sexual sadist (among other things). I had never told my girlfriend before, though on a few occasions she may have caught glimpses of it. We’d been together for eight months and I finally told her on Monday. To my surprise, she was willing to give it a try. I stressed to her what I wanted and what I was going to do, but she assured me she’d be fine.
Not going into details, I ended up scaring the sh*t out of her and she left and didn’t speak to me for two days. We had a long chat, she agreed to keep my “sexual preferences” quiet and we continued on as normal though she seemed quite timid. No, she didn’t break up with me because of my paraphilia – her cat died yesterday and because I didn’t give a sh*t she left me. Yeah, really.
My point is, I thought she’d freak out and run a mile when I told her what I wanted and she didn’t. She actually tried it.
Anyone else ever been able to actually indulge in their paraphilia? We all have the fantasies and the dreams, but have you actually done it?
If you haven’t – if you did – would you be glad or regretful?
[I know this part of the forum has a lot of paedophiles and a few necrophiliacs who, hopefully, haven’t actually indulged in theirs for real, still, I’m curious if there’s others like me here.]