Trigger Warning: Seduced by my brother I was 11, he 18

Le voila, le petit colonel.
Et bien, Bonjour Sire

Napoleon88 wrote:salut, beau marin
[...] you write [...] with a certain grandiloquence which wends itself through your posts [...]

That would be my Histrionic Personality Disorder conspiring with my Narcissist PD and clamoring for an audience. Silly, but till I grow a new personality, unavoidable I'm afraid.

Napoleon88 wrote:bringing [...] religion into this topic just derails it unnecessarily. She's a nice girl and I at least felt that the way you handled that could have been improved.

I will always speak my mind; as a positive atheist, religion is no sacred cow to me: it is just another idea in the market place of ideas, a market where you find good and bad ideas; religion is a bad idea, since, among other things, it breeds hypocricy and vice. The religion in question has as its spiritual head, a man who chose a bride of 12 to share his bed.

Therefore, my asking her what she thought about this could not be more central to the discussions and concerns which preoccupy most of the people in this forum!

The man whom she calls prophet is no such thing, but rather a man with lusts and desires, schemes and plans, virtues and vices, just like the rest of us. In fact, it seems that he had one drive, one part of his nature, in perfect accord with a lot of people on this forum, namely his preference for and delight in the pubescent female form. So, given that he is nothing to me but a man, why should I abstain from asking questions of her attitude to him, when I might ask this -without causing a ripple- of any other man or woman?

She declined to answer it, maintaining that I "should not bring religion into it". So I declined to further engage with her, ending by wishing her well.

I am unaware of having broken any forum rules. Therefore I do not see the need to speak of it further.

Napoleon88 wrote:That said, welcome to this haven of depravity lol. We're all fighting the same fight here. Good luck.
MJ

Thanks for the welcome. We all need a haven.
As for the contention that "we are all fighting the same fight", I'm afraid that I must disagree: for one thing, my sexual feelings are pretty much in recess due to certain health conditions from which I suffer, and, for another, the trajectory of my life and the luck I have had, and the trust and love I have found at times, have all combined to help me avoid winding up in prison, which just happens to be because I have never done anything for which I could be imprisoned. This is incidental to what concerns me most in life and what draws me to a group like this.

You see, I am not struggling against anything at all: I come here as a member of a persecuted minority, to be myself, to find temporary refuge, "a safe haven"; I am a complex being filled with all sorts of passions and ideas and opinions and feelings, not all of which is harmonized into a coherent whole, not by a long shot, but I am getting along okay.

Unfortunately, I am unacceptable to broader society even if dare to audibly whisper my heart's secret, fondest desire, that "love that dare not speak its name". I am not ashamed of this desire, not one bit! So I don't need to be nice: I don't need forgiveness, I don't need to be told I'm okay; I know that already and I don't have any sins on my conscience.

I'm not desperate and I'm not suicidal; sometimes I get a little lonely, naturally, so I seek places like this where I might find some common ground.

I am emphatically not here for personal growth or therapy, nor for advice per se, though if I hear or read something that makes sense I will peck at it, bower bird like, and see if fits into MY kalaidescope.

Finally, I am certainly not hear to be nice to people and to make friends, not primarily anyway. I'm just here to be myself and seek the experience of "herd warmth" from others who might be more or less on the same track on some key issues. If I connect, on a good day, with just one other forum participant, well and good; if I clash sometimes, that is inevitable: I am a passionate man, yet I hope I am mostly reasonable too.

Cheers,

Thanks guys

Simontheo wrote:Welcome to the forums, I do hope you feel at home and I hope that you find what you are looking for.

In relation to allahuakbar I think you were a tad mean to and said unecessary things especially because I believe that just as you don't want to be judged neither does her. I had to get that off my chest, so don't take it personally...*snip*

Seconded. All of it.

Otter.

otter wrote:Seconded. All of it.

Otter.

Thanks, for the welcome
Addressed the other issue above.

cheers,

Sorry, I missed it Beau.

Otter.

beaumarin wrote: I have to start by frankly expressing my distaste for your pseudo, since it is in my face as a subtle provocation each time I see it

Hi beaumarin,
I also feel very uncomfortable with that pseudo, mainly because that is what muslim terrorists scream at the top of their longs the moment before they start their "holy" mission of spreading death and distraction around.
I find this pseudo distasteful and inappropriate.

It means: "God is great."

I've got my opinions about certain religious people, but as far as I'm aware, allahuakbar hasn't shown the slightest hint of religious conservatism or intolerance. If she had, I'd happily have a 'debate' with her, just like I recently had with a Christian hardliner in the Sexual Addiction forum.

Take people as you find them. Never judge individuals on preconceptions. She's been nothing but nice to people on here, and more importantly, she's shown a willingness to look beyond the preconceptions that public opinion has about the type of people who would post on a paraphilias forum.

It works both ways, folks.

Hi everyone. Again can I just say that I had no intention of offending anyone with my screen name. I didn't think a lot of people would know what it meant unless they were muslim. I don't want to spend all of my time discussing religion because that's not why I'm here. Although I must say

mitvade wrote: that is what muslim terrorists scream at the top of their longs the moment before they start their "holy" mission of spreading death and distraction around.
I find this pseudo distasteful and inappropriate.

Terrorists are not muslims; they are misguided individuals who do not practice Islam. As for distasteful and inappropriate? I thought this forum was about freedom of expression, for people to say things they wouldn't express to the outside world. There are lots of things that people say which I and others might think are distasteful/inappropriate, but I say to myself 'Maria (that's my name) who are you to judge? Forget about the specific word/sentence u think is inappropriate and focus on something positive. If that's not possible then read something different. Simple.'

I'd just like to ask u guys not to focus on my name please, focus on my posts. And if you don't like them, read something different. Simple

A discussion is an exchange of knowledge, but an argument is an exchange of ignorance. If Beaumarin wants to have a lack of faith, then he should remember to respect the fact that other people actually possess faith. I have had enough of the arguments about religion. I understand your past Beaumarin, and why you would want to speculate on other people's faiths and religions. I just would like to stay on topic, if that is possible. I'm sorry I don't really have anything to talk about in relation to the actual topic.

allahuakbar wrote:Hi everyone. Again can I just say that I had no intention of offending anyone with my screen name. I didn't think a lot of people would know what it meant unless they were muslim. I don't want to spend all of my time discussing religion because that's not why I'm here. Although I must say

mitvade wrote: that is what muslim terrorists scream at the top of their longs the moment before they start their "holy" mission of spreading death and distraction around.
I find this pseudo distasteful and inappropriate.

Terrorists are not muslims; they are misguided individuals who do not practice Islam. As for distasteful and inappropriate? I thought this forum was about freedom of expression, for people to say things they wouldn't express to the outside world. There are lots of things that people say which I and others might think are distasteful/inappropriate, but I say to myself 'Maria (that's my name) who are you to judge? Forget about the specific word/sentence u think is inappropriate and focus on something positive. If that's not possible then read something different. Simple.'

I'd just like to ask u guys not to focus on my name please, focus on my posts. And if you don't like them, read something different. Simple

I agree with every single word. And I like your name