Are you good at keeping your paraphilia a secret?

How good are you at keeping your paraphilia a secret?

Recently I made some careless mistakes such as leaving behind printed internet humiliation fetish stories in my old room at my parents' home, I should have thrown those away before I moved out. Most of the stories involved a cruel stepmother putting her step-son in makeup, lipstick, and women's clothes, and forcing him to become her maid or selling him into gay prostitution.

I think my Mom found and read some of these stories and figured out that I'm living thru the character of the step-son. In the last six months she has been making comments that humiliate me, almost as though she is thinking, "If this is how he wants to be treated then he will get it." She's saying things like "When you go out tomorrow don't forget your purse." And another example was: After my last full physical at the Doctor's office, she asked me "Did you get an erection when he touched your penis?" I play dumb and pretend like I don't notice that she's making these comments.

KevinG31 wrote:How good are you at keeping your paraphilia a secret?

Recently I made some careless mistakes such as leaving behind printed internet humiliation fetish stories in my old room at my parents' home, I should have thrown those away before I moved out. Most of the stories involved a cruel stepmother putting her step-son in makeup, lipstick, and women's clothes, and forcing him to become her maid or selling him into gay prostitution.

I think my Mom found and read some of these stories and figured out that I'm living thru the character of the step-son. In the last six months she has been making comments that humiliate me, almost as though she is thinking, "If this is how he wants to be treated then he will get it." She's saying things like "When you go out tomorrow don't forget your purse." And another example was: After my last full physical at the Doctor's office, she asked me "Did you get an erection when he touched your penis?" I play dumb and pretend like I don't notice that she's making these comments.

If i had your fetish, I'd think she was coming onto me in some offensive and inappropriate manner...

Siamese Fever wrote:

KevinG31 wrote:How good are you at keeping your paraphilia a secret?

Recently I made some careless mistakes such as leaving behind printed internet humiliation fetish stories in my old room at my parents' home, I should have thrown those away before I moved out. Most of the stories involved a cruel stepmother putting her step-son in makeup, lipstick, and women's clothes, and forcing him to become her maid or selling him into gay prostitution.

I think my Mom found and read some of these stories and figured out that I'm living thru the character of the step-son. In the last six months she has been making comments that humiliate me, almost as though she is thinking, "If this is how he wants to be treated then he will get it." She's saying things like "When you go out tomorrow don't forget your purse." And another example was: After my last full physical at the Doctor's office, she asked me "Did you get an erection when he touched your penis?" I play dumb and pretend like I don't notice that she's making these comments.

If i had your fetish, I'd think she was coming onto me in some offensive and inappropriate manner...

That's a good point, it is like she's intentionally playing toward what she has discovered I like rather than being disgusted. My relationship with her is weird anyway, I'm 31 years old but I still call her "Mommy".

Some of my friends were talking about lolicon, the song pomf pomf pomf to be exact, and they wanted to see the source material, so I immediately told them the title to it and told them of another, more hardcore loicon manga. It was out of impulse, I guess, and they affectionately, or rightfully labeled me a pedo after that. Good thing my friend's ASPD.

I like to surround myself with youthful things; such as pictures of children, movies, toys, and clothes. Due to the fact that I have full blown, very negative conversations with myself, I wouldn't be surprised if everyone in the family probably knows but doesn't bother me about it.

Their cuckoo little sister is nothing worry about. they're not aware of my big ###$ up though. I prefer they don't.

no, i haven't molested. Beyond that detail, i dont wwant tto talk about it

I'm pretty paranoid about it. I always delete my Internet history before I get off the computer, even if I'm just checking my e-mail, I'm just in the habit of doing it every time now, just in case. Same with the Internet history on my phone.

The only physical things I own that would give me away are my journal, my notebook where I write short stories, and one of my sketchbooks that I use to draw things related to my paraphilia, my "porn" I guess . I keep these three notebooks together and hidden as well as I possibly can.

I was good at keeping it to myself until I was caught and then it became the worlds buisness and now everyone knows. My friends want nothing to do with me and that is the same with family, I am now registered and have to see a therapist on a weekly basis as well as a probation officer, finding work can be pretty hard and if it wasn't for an inheritance I got before I was caught I would really be hurting right now. I have a place to stay but I am housed with other child sex offenders which I honestly don't feel is a good choice but I had none when they eventually put me here. So yeah its public info for the world to know.

Same for me, never committed a crime and nobody knew my secret, one mistake and although I still never touched a child or stalked a child or plain just acted creepy with a child, I was out as a pedophile, which of course everybody confuses with child molester/rapist