Babies. *May Trigger*

So I've been apprehensive to write this post, many reasons, some being obvious.

I've always been primarily attracted to girls at the age of, say, four to six. My attractions still usually stretch all the way to nine or ten, maybe eleven. Still, as they go up, the also reach down.

I've been having fantasies about babies for a while now, I'd say they've always been there, they have just gotten more demanding as to how much they, well, work for me as a fantasy. From what I've heard nepiophilia is an attraction to children under five, which I already qualify for, but there's something different. It doesn't feel at all like my feelings for children four and onward.

With children I think of them all the time, imagining doing mundane things like feeding them and clothing them, it makes me happy to think about simply the thought of living with and caring for a child. I'm interested in them outside of sex. However, with babies it's completely different.

With my fantasies about babies, it's purely a physical thing. I don't know what I see in them that's attractive, whereas with a child I could list everything off the top of my head. More, I only think of them whilst I'm pleasuring myself or am aroused. When everything is done, my thoughts of them fade completely. This is why I think my attractions for infants are better qualified as a fetish, where my thoughts of children are far more emotional. I think of my thoughts for children as a sexuality because I crave a relationship with them, not just sex. I don't think I would die for a baby.

Could any nepiophiles help me or weigh in on this? Would this count as nepiophilia, or is it just some fixation or fetish? As I said, it feels so completely different from the feelings I have for older children. I'd really appreciate it if I could hear from anyone similar in situation to me.

It is still considered nepiophilia. It's the physical attraction that defines pedophilia, hebephilia, nepiophilia, etc. It's like my attraction to underage girls. I'm physically attracted to girls ages 8+. Thing is, I feel no emotional attraction to them at all. I'm physically more attracted to women my age and only emotionally attracted to women my own age. I am also sexually attracted to underage girls, but I usually lose the attraction when I come into contact with them. I see it as more of a fetish, but I still consider myself a pedophile. I guess our situations are the same, except while mine is pedophilia, yours is nepiophilia.

I am a nepiophiles 100% of the time and it seems like lately I am very drawn to baby girls and try and find ways to see them naked online and even after I masturbate I am still thinking about them and imagining myself being in the same sort of situation and relationship that I would have with an older child. I know that with a baby that consent would be impossible but just the thought and idea of being with a baby on a sexual level drives me mad with lusts and desires. I have accepted this about myself and dont feel like I am any stranger than someone attracted to older children