How paranoia can affect anyone.

You wake up, and you can't go through a day without praying for protection and worrying about something. You go out, you feel unsafe, you feel like everyone is looking at you, you think you are the center of attention, you think when people laugh, they laugh at you, when people stare, they are looking at how poorly presented you are. You go into public toilets, check if anyone is there, you hear situations and problems that have nothing to do with you, you still think you are linked to it, a man with tattoos and a beard is walking down the street, A: Do I pray to God he doesn't harm me? B: Do I cross the road and ignore him and walk quickly, f*ck it, I went for both. Persecutions, just a thing you feel as if it follows you, you do something wrong, something is after you, you know it isn't true, but it is fixed, is that person looking at me funny? Why would he look at me in such a sadistic way, is he plotting out to hurt me? Should I disconnect my phone to prevent those unknown and horrifying prank callers from calling it again? Should I bring a weapon out at night if I'm walking alone? Oh, that's right.. I can't, if higher authority searches me, I rock up to the police station, that's when the delusion rises to reality, makes me more worried. Oh, crap! My friends are bad influences but love me so much, what if I confront them and they decide to do bad things to me, better stay silent. "I got a secret I can tell you, I trust you", pfft, that ended during childhood. Lock the doors, seal everything, check again, check one more time, make sure a nearby weapon is in your house. Oh, God, what the hell is that? Is that shadow after me? "Don't worry so much, you are so paranoid", don't you think I already know that? Your words do not enlighten me with courage to try new things without another belief poppin' in. "Am I superior and better than the others? I think I have some sort of superpower".. "Ha, I could fly if I want to, I jut haven't evolved yet..". "What is that person looking at?", "hmm, is he admiring my looks and my superiority, I am now considered a high power". "Inferior" for all, "superior" for me. "What the f*ck did that person just say to me? I cannot comprehend it so I'll try undermine it", "It's not like I haven't spoken to Brad Pitt .. I've known him for a while". "F*ck it, I'm tired, I'm going to bed".

Wake up, repeat.