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Postby apu99992 » Tue Sep 09, 2008 6:54 pm

Hi, I'm new here to this forum, but I don't know where I should post this so bear with me here.

Today I got two Spanish quizzes back after a week, and I FAILED BOTH of them. I have always been a straight-A student most of the time, and I have NEVER failed a quiz/test/assignment before. I realized that half of my answers were correct, or so I though. My teacher said that he couldn't read my handwriting, and so he took those points off. MY handwriting has always been messy, and so far none of my teachers have had a problem with it. I should be completely miserable right now, but all my brain can think of is "this is the first time it's ever happened, so your parents will let you off the hook". I don't know why, but my brain keeps trying to find was to escape doing something. If I can watch T.V. while doing Homework, I will because my brain says "you don't get graded on it, all you need to do is complete it". It's becoming more and more frequent as my homework levels pile-up higher through-out the years. Last year I didn't get straight-A's for a single marking period, which has NEVER happened before. I should hate myself, but I don't. What's my problem? How can I solve it? And if this is the wrong forum, where should I post this?
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Postby Chucky » Tue Sep 09, 2008 8:10 pm

Hi,

It's okay in this forum for the moment. To me, it sounds like you have become apathetic with your life (i.e. - you don't particularly care either way what happens in anything you do). This can be a sign of depression. Do you feel depressed?

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Postby apu99992 » Tue Sep 09, 2008 9:42 pm

I don't feel depressed a lot. However, when I get up every morning, I have to almost throw myself out of the bed and go to school. I feel depressed usually after a fight with my parents, or if I have to do a lot of homework.
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Postby Chucky » Tue Sep 09, 2008 11:54 pm

Oh okay. Is there anything else that you can think of that's upsetting you in life? Do you go out much? Are you bored with school? It sounds simple but sometimes we need to introduce new things into our lives to prevent them from becoming 'stale'. Perhaps you are just bored with - well - everything?

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Postby apu99992 » Wed Sep 10, 2008 1:54 am

I don't get out much on weekdays, but I definitely hang out w/ my friends on weekends. Right now I am unbelievably bored with school, as most of my friends aren't in the same class. I'm also a little depressed because at lunch, the only friend I have in the lunch period is my friend Srikant, and lunch is boring because we don't have any fun talking to each other. Lunch is as long as a regular period, and it bores and depresses me.
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Postby apu99992 » Wed Sep 10, 2008 10:10 am

Today, there's a club expo at my high school, and based on what you have said so far I''m going to sign up for clubs that I wouldn't normally sign up for before.
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Postby Chucky » Wed Sep 10, 2008 3:44 pm

Hi,

I'm glad that you are going to sign-up for this club - What exactly will be happening at it? Also, I'd just like to say that I have never enjoyed lunch-breaks throughout both school, college and work. In school, I also had a friend but we never really talked about anything. More often than not, I would just stay by myself and not talk to anyone. In college now, I sometimes eat my lunch in the toilet and then just go straight to the library to do some work!

Anyway, I'm glad I've helped you. Please keep me up to date as I will be willing to help you as much as I possibl can.

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Postby apu99992 » Wed Sep 10, 2008 8:02 pm

Thanks. I have joined about 4 clubs today! The economy club, the investment team, the engineering club, and the Hindu honor society (I'm from Andra if you want to know). I'm looking froward to it, and I think you're right in the fact that introducing new things makes life better, because I took a Spanish quiz today, and I'm actually feeling pretty confident about it. Usually when my teacher asks me a question in Spanish (which is everyday) I get it wrong and I can't figure out the correct answer. But today I finally got a question right, and then I got another one right! It felt good in a way that's hard to describe, accomplishing something little but satisfying. Once again thank you for taking the time to talk to me; BTW I didn't kno that you were in college. What are you majoring in, and how long are you going to study?

Sincerely,
Your new friend Narain
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Postby Chucky » Wed Sep 10, 2008 8:28 pm

Hi,

The engineering society should be quite interesting. I love learning about the big engineering projects from around the world, such as bridge-building and building skyscrapers. Anyway, Andra is in India, yeh? I do not know much about it. Is it a big city? Also, why are you studying Spanish? I studied Spanish for four years and I love it. I have a certificate for it. I also have two certificates in French.

I live in a town called Naas, and it is just outside Dublin city. In college, I am studying Industrial Biology. I started studying Computer Science back in the year 2000 but I did not like it, and then began studying Biology in 2005.

Take care Narain,
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PS - Your name sounds lovely :)
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Postby apu99992 » Thu Sep 11, 2008 7:28 pm

Hi,

As I went to school today, I was feeling pretty happy because I woke up today exactly at 5:30 without an alarm, got ready, ate breakfast and still had 20 minutes to spare. I tried to write a response to you in the morning, but my internet crashed mid-typing so I just went to school. However, school turned out to depress me more than anything I would have thought possible.

The day I wrote the first post, I locked myself in a room away from all electronic devices and distractions to study Spanish. I spent 2 hours studying about 30 different reflexive verbs until I memorized their spelling, irregularities, and conjugations down to the letter. I took the Spanish quiz the next day, and I understood all of the vocabulary and knew what to write in the blanks. However, I STILL got an E on the test, and have absolutely no idea what I've doing wrong. For warm-ups in class today he had to write sentences with reflexive verbs, and I nailed all of them. The test only requires you to fill in one blank per sentence with the correct verb and conjugation. I have no idea why this keeps happening.

In addition to this , I got two tests back today, and I thought that I did well on both of them. One was a math test, and one was a science test. They were about the same difficulty. However, I spent over 45 minutes studying for the math test, but didn't study for the science test at all. I was shocked to find out that I got a 23/25 on the science test (class average was a 17) and a 20/25 on the math test (most of the class got A's). I don't understand this either. Shouldn't more studying entitle you to a better grade? It always has in the past. The worst part is that I have only one re-take per quarter, and my teacher tells me that harder tests are soon to come. However if I keep this grade my 95 drops to a 87.5, which will definately piss off my parents.

Since you have a ceritificate in Spanish, I'll show you an example of how I write.

English: I don't like to wake up for school because I need to take a take a bath, dress myself, wash my hair, and eat breakfast in less than 30 minutes.

No me gusta despertarme para la escuela porque tengo que banarme, vestirme, lavo mi pelo, y comer el deasyuno en 30 minutos menor.

Can you tell me what's wrong with my verb usage, please?
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