people around me are trying to set me up so i could get caug

guys.. anyone here to help?
i am full of thoughts. i might be wrong but might be right or maybe loosing it.. i dunno.
what i am feeling right now is that everyone is trying to lure me into buying drug.
alot of people in family or close ones are like like to conspire against me or messing with my head/mind into taking/buying drug.
alot of these people knows that i've done drugs in the past and they probably does not believe me (if i told them again that i have stopped or quit for good).

sometimes i feel like my own sister,mom,dad is/are pretending to listen to my stories..
i am 100% sure that i can't trust anyone now.

i dont what to do anymore. i've been dealing with this mental illness for about 5 years now. now i got literally no friend.i feel like everyone is trying set me up so that i get caught. i regret everything wrong that i did in the past.

Have you sought out any treatment? I know it's hard having the disorder . I hope you do not start using drugs again. I'm not sure how old you are , but it gets easier to have friends when you have a social job, attend school, try to interact with people. Once you experience a real good friendship or relationship you will want a taste of it and gain more will to try again.

ChiGuy wrote:Have you sought out any treatment? I know it's hard having the disorder . I hope you do not start using drugs again. I'm not sure how old you are , but it gets easier to have friends when you have a social job, attend school, try to interact with people. Once you experience a real good friendship or relationship you will want a taste of it and gain more will to try again.

hey ChiGuy,thanks for replying buddy or else i felt so alone with my mental illness.
yes, i have seen doctor,psychiatrist and counsellor but it doesn't help me much.
thank god i am completely off from drug. and i ve been on and off.. on quiting smoking due to stress and depression. i can only last about 2-3 days without smoking.i am already 30 years of age.i am incapable of working around as i have huge trust issues.
i quit my last job because i was certain that my colleagues, my boss and the staffs are conspire to do something bad to me like set me up with drug so that i would get caught or something. i tried looking for friend but it is really hard for me to trust a stranger. i feel alot safer meeting online.

i wish i know just what to do.

rednessw4rrior wrote:

ChiGuy wrote:Have you sought out any treatment? I know it's hard having the disorder . I hope you do not start using drugs again. I'm not sure how old you are , but it gets easier to have friends when you have a social job, attend school, try to interact with people. Once you experience a real good friendship or relationship you will want a taste of it and gain more will to try again.

hey ChiGuy,thanks for replying buddy or else i felt so alone with my mental illness.
yes, i have seen doctor,psychiatrist and counsellor but it doesn't help me much.
thank god i am completely off from drug. and i ve been on and off.. on quiting smoking due to stress and depression. i can only last about 2-3 days without smoking.i am already 30 years of age.i am incapable of working around as i have huge trust issues.
i quit my last job because i was certain that my colleagues, my boss and the staffs are conspire to do something bad to me like set me up with drug so that i would get caught or something. i tried looking for friend but it is really hard for me to trust a stranger. i feel alot safer meeting online.

i wish i know just what to do.

Yeah, I have a hard time getting off smoking too. I understand your fears, how can you be productive when you are plagued with all that $#%^ ? Well it will still happen when you make it. I think you should give therapy another try, that's one thing that probably most of us on this forum should never give up really. Toughest part is finding someone you can trust to talk to for sure, but ya gotta keep trying.

I have gained most of my past friendships online, and that is just really hard. It's easier and faster when you are working or going to school for something or doing some kind of social event/hobby. Have you tried volunteering any? I like to volunteer for the park service, you can find a lot of different, very friendly people in those environments and it all looks good on a resume and you might even get a connection!

As for dating, I am very reliant on the internet. OkCupid has gotten me more dates then anything so maybe give online dating a try when you are ready . IRL currently I haven't had any therapy recently and I definitely feel it. Getting off weed is tough, maybe transfer addiction to something productive like working out ?

I'm a Christian and I will just throw it out there that I have found the power of prayer to be amazing and very helpful to me personally in my journey.

Stay strong and never think that you are alone man.