by smflottemesch » Sat Jul 09, 2011 2:59 am
Hi. I want to tell you that my anxiety manifests itself a lot like you. I never put my twitches and jitteriness as a panic attack. I get them sometimes. I don't have a full out panic attack much anymore. My meds work pretty well.
I am truly sorry that you feel defective. I don't believe you are. I'm not sure if you are spiritual or not. I have a strong belief in the super natural, the things that "don't exist" to some. I think that when I get scared or I just don't feel right, that it is for a reason. That maybe I am more sensitive to my surroundings.
I can feel the electricity in the air right before a storm. I sometimes can hear things that others can't. <Could be auditory halcuinations, but it's all in what you believe. Details> Instead of looking at this as a curse, try and think of it as a gift. You are just more sensitive. I bet that you are loyal and compsassionate. Sometimes if I have too much stress, or if I'm giving too much to others, I freak. I am overwhelmed easily.
I believe that each person is completely original. If we get caught up in what others think of us, we start to see our flaws instead of concentrating on our gifts. We all have something that was bred into us. We just need to find it. I don't know you. I think that I know how you feel. And I have good days where I am super positive and others where I am scared shit-less. Read my blog. You can tell I'm bipolar.
Anyway. Done. I have a tendency to write a lot. I am in a creative train of thoughts at the moment. I wish you well. And remember, you are unique, don't ever think you aren't worth it. You are. We all are.
Peace and Happy Travels
-K
Dx: Bipolar Disorder 1, Anxiety Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Anorexia/Bulimia
UnDx: Dissociative Identity Disorder
Rx: Lamictal (150 mg), Celexa (10 mg), Hydroxazine (50-100 mg, 4 times/day)