Any young pain sufferers?

Hi!

I have chronic back pain and have had for the past 3 years. They don't know what's wrong with it, I've had so many diagnoses and they've all been wrong in some way or another but some of them have been scary for my friends and family as some have suggested surgery etc. I totally get where you're coming from with feeling the prime of your life is being stolen from you, I'm 20 and can't do nearly as much as I want to for fear of sparking a relapse Lots of hugs to you, I hope you can talk to those around you, but also remember that you don't have to put up with people if they don't treat you well, some people won't understand and won't try to and end up being toxic There are others out there, I know if don't have fibromyalgia so can't comment on specifics but I hope you find ways to cope soon! Take it one day at a time!

Lizze

i've been having chronic middle back / spinal pain for quite some time and im 24 years old and it's only been getting worse and worse by the day. i have had a diagnosis of major depression since around 18 years old and diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder a few years later after that, most of my life has been quite difficult, including chronic boredom, emptiness, and anger, i have on and off eye pain due to excessive computer and gaming use ( due to it being like one of the very things that i cope with ), i also have compulsive masturbation and porn usage as my other coping mechanisms / and to get my needs met, although due to my lifestyle and other factors such as limited hobbies, all of these have further caused physical and emotional problems.

it also doesn't help that i've been going to group therapies / support groups for years with people 90 percent of the time being a lot older than me, usually in their 40's or 50's, sometimes even 60's or 70's, yet physically and emotionally, i feel like i'm even worse than them , even though they say a lot in general that you aren't alone ...which i disagree with most of the time because they are usually speaking very generally and i can tell if someone is actually being truthful and knows exactly how i feel, however, many of them are still nice and decent people, it's just that i don't relate to them personally.

although most of the middle back pain / weak spine has been a progressive problem ever since around puberty for me, around late 5th grade or early 6th grade ( around age 11 ), i started to become more and more inhibited both physically and emotionally, so i wasn't as social or being part of the social environment became more difficult, talking, or being attentive / filtering things, and would have difficulty having relaxed or comfortable posture when i would be in social environments or other people, so much it affects me and affected me that i put my head down and still do in class settings for very long periods due to feeling awkward / out of place in the social environment and being being overwhelming and uncomfortable, suffering back pain in the process from having to put my head down for long periods, physical pain in general and further affecting my emotional well being. however, this isn't to say i was always fine before puberty, it just means that i started to actually develop more noticeable problems when puberty started and that before puberty, i may have had anxiety or difficulties, but because i was living well enough in the moment and busy and engaged like any other kid, i wasn't impacted really.

i have tried previous physical therapy / exercises more recently without much help for the middle back / spinal issues, however i haven't given up and still apply some of them everyday, as well as going on 12 - 17 minute walks everyday for general well being, eating an orange, and the smaller more practical stuff that i know can help at least a little bit in the present but possibly more so in the long run. i am hoping to see a chiropractor possibly because i don't think the physical therapist i've seen or physical therapists in general can give treatment for more chronic conditions like i have, besides the fact that the middle back / thoracic spine area is harder to target and can't be treated as easy as other areas like the lower back, unless you have like a gym with specific machines, but of course most people like me don't have access to a gym or these things for various factors.

it would be nice if met another schizotypal with the same problems i'm explaining, then i can be rest assured i really am not alone, personally i haven't met anyone in therapy that was diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder, and most people i've seen with depression have the manic type or bipolar disorder and not unipolar depression, most other people i've met have schizoaffective disorder or schizophrenia.