by remusmdh » Tue Jan 22, 2013 2:15 pm
Okay, first attempt died when I clicked "submit" so, let's try this again >_>
I would like a journal and having it open, for now at least, to comments. But a warning.
I blog/journal in two other places, but people know me there, and well, when I meltdown... people start freaking out, and frankly? I'm tired of it. So, I'd like somewhere where people actually have some understanding of the emotional hell of mood disorders commenting back instead of just "don't kill yourself that is so against god, you're going to hell!!" crap.
But, y'all need to understand, I'm wanting this as my despair pain vomiting journal. Yeah, I might talk about writing or something else TOO, but... I have despair bouts almost daily, they have never responded to any form of drugs or therapy, and... I've scared psychaitrists before I can get so bad.
All that said, in twenty-six years of this stuff, I have not once attempted suicide. So regardless of how bad I sound, do not take it personally.
I'm doing this so people stop calling the thrice damned cops on me and having my front door knocked in again and interrogated by a bunch of guys with guns glaring at me and searching my home for weapons and terrorist plans @_@