failedatlife's Journal (Replies Welcome)

I just spoke with my father and there is a possibility he has prostate cancer and I am afraid it will be too late to save him and he will die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I'm about to go to sleep but I feel like I will swallow my tongue while asleep half asleep or even if I am awake. Also I am afraid that if my father dies from pristate cancer we will all go crazyI will develop schizophrenia and my mom would lose her mind and kill my brother and I fear all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I'm about to go to sleep but I am afraid I will swallow my tongue either asleep or half asleep or awake and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I had a deja vu earlier that today I will swallow my tongue and die and I am afraid it will happen either now that I have dinner or when I am asleep or half asleep and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I'm about to go to sleep but all the time I feel like my tongue is slipping down my throat and I will die either asleep or half asleep or awake and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

Hi Failedatlife

I know that this is what you brain is stuck on. And I know how those stuck loops go- I get them too, but with different "sticking points" if you like, but I do know how the further whatever is pushing that fear, or whatever else is overwhelming you at the time goes, the worse the obsessing gets. Would it help if you were to do a google search on how possible it is to swallow your tongue to reassure you that it's not physically possible to? I don't want to come across as dismissive of what's going on in your brain, because I know that how real those thoughts are to you, but just wonder if researching your fear would help reassure you a bit.

Lily

Hi, I have done the research but it doesn't really help me get the thoughts away from me and that is what irritates me the most. Even right now as I am about to sleep I am afraid of falling asleep due to me swallowing my tongue accidentally and never wake up or that this happens when I am half asleep. It just keeps coming to my head and I am really afraid that even if I write it here it will happen and I will die

I am about to go to sleep but I am afraid I will swallow my tongue either asleep or half asleep or awake and die and I am also afraid that I am starting to confuse the attention a girl from the group chat I wrote about a couple of days ago as a special attraction towards me and that makes me scared that I am straight, I will fall in love and will have romantic and/or wet dreams regarding her or a woman in general and I fear all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I am about to go to sleep but I am afraid I will swallow my tongue and die in my sleep or half asleep or awake and I am also afraid I am starting to fall in love with a girl from this group chat, I always smile when she likesy messages and even check if she finds them funny and other things I hate it first because I am ending up being straight and second because I know I have no chance and rationally I don't even want to have a chance with her, we're just discussing a reality show in this chat and nothing else I really hate it and I am afraid all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I am about to go to sleep but I am afraid I will swallow my tongue and die and also I am still infatuated with that girl which irritates me very much because I am afraid I will fall in love with her and I am also afraid I have insulted a boy in the chat. He was making some sexual remarks to another guy and the second guy left the chat and then I told the boy off and he left the chat too and I am afraid that the for boy might commit suicide and that all that would happen despite that I write about it here.