failedatlife's Journal (Replies Welcome)

I still have the feeling I will swallow my tongue and die in my sleep or otherwise and I am also afraid that the new therapy I got from the psychiatrist is not going to work and I am making a huge mistake that will lead me to schizophrenia and I am afraid all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I still have the feeling that I Will swallow my tongue and die in my sleep. I also fear that would happen outside and I will dyie. U aso fear I can swallow my sog everwhere and that all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I have the feeling I will swallow my tongue during dinner or in my sleep and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am watching tv right now and just got a horrible deja vu that tonight I will swallow my tongue and die in my sleep and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I have the feeling that some morning in the weekend or other time I will be messing around with my tongue while half asleep and I will swallow it and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I have the feeling that I had to go to the doctor's today and it was a mistake that I didn't and I will swallow my tongue and die in my sleep also I have to charge my phone but I fear I will start swallowing my tongue and not being able to get to the phone to call an ambulance and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am going on a walk now and I am afraid I will swallow my tongue and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I have the feeling that something very bad will happen like me developing schizophrenia and I feel like I am fatally late with my reaction to the symptoms and I had to stick to my initial therapy when I started it 2 and a half years ago and I feel like all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I have the feeling that in any moment, and especially in an hour when there is a biathlon race I will swallow my tongue and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am going to bed and I am afraid I will swallow my tongue and die in my sleep or die from a heart attack due to slight lower blood saturation and that will happen despite that I write about it here.