failedatlife's Journal (Replies Welcome)

I have the feeling that either my panic attacks will never stop, or that I will swallow my tongue and die
, or that I die from a heart attack and that all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I have the feeling that I will get a heart attack between 3:30 and 5:30 and die or swallow my tongue and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

And I also have a feeling that whatever I do - watch a series, please myself or even walk or sleep, I will swallow my tongue between 3:30 and 5 30 and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I just have this fear that because today I didn't go to the doctor's everything is lost and whatever I do - sleep, wathc something, please myself, walk or drink water I will swallow my tongue and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

Also when I please myself I fear that it will trigger a heart attack or that I swallow my tongue and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I feel like I have to get some sleep bit I think it will make me swallow my tongue and die or get a heart attack and die or drinking water and cry and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I have the feeling that if I go to bed, I will either die from a heart attack or a panick and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am about to have dinner but I am afraid I will swallow my tongue and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am lying in bed and I am afraid I will swallow my tongue and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I had some horrible panic attacks this week and yesterday I went to the doctor's and she gave me directed me to a psychiatrist but in the meantime until I get to go there she prescribed me Xanax and now I am afraid I will get schizophrenia because I read that antidepressants can trigger latent schizophrenia to transform into a full-blown one and I am afraid that will happen despite that I write about it here.