failedatlife's Journal (Replies Welcome)

As my father will stay in the hospital for a couple of days my mother and brother may come toy house for a couple of days and I am afraid they will discover how messy my cupboards and wardrobes are and evict me and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am afraid my father will die in the hospital and my mother and brother will have to live at my house and discover how messy my cupboards and wardrobes are and my mum will evict me and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I really fear we might recieve a call in the coming hours or days telling us my father has died and so my mother and brother will have to move in withe or otherwise they will have to temporarily live at my house they will discover the messy cupboards and wardrobes and evict me and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

My mother is going to visit my father in the hospital and I am afraid that circa 12:30 I will get a call that either my mother died in a car crash or my father died in the hospital or both and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am afraid it will result that my father has kidney failure and he will fall very ill and eventually die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am afraid that my father will call from the hospital on Friday night and say he will die soon and say goodbye and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am afraid that my father will die in hospital and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am also afraid to look through old chats with friends because I fear it will unlock some kind of karma which will result in my father having an operation and dying or becoming severely disabled and later die painfully and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am afraid my mother will die soon and my father will be in charge of my brother and he will turn abusive and make things like withhold food or beat him or keep him cold or SA him and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I made a mistake at work that could lead to problems and I fear it will be violent and I will not only get fired but sued too because I fear that since I didn't set the access of a worker to hos former job he might go there and open fire or fight with the staff and I also fear that my parents will come tomorrow and see that the house is a mess and evict me and maybe even come in the morning and wake me up and that all that would happen despite that I write about it here.