failedatlife's Journal (Replies Welcome)

I am afraid my cousin who has mental disabilities will be angry that my aunt left her with her father at home to go to the cinema and will kill my brother and cousin or someone from my gay social media accounts will recognise mr in the dark on the way home and kill me and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I fear that tomorrow when we stop in the village of my late great-grandfather or on the way home or in my grandparents town someone from my gay social media accounts will recognise and kill me or we will die with my family in a car crash or my cousin will go mad and kill my brother and other cousin or even everybody at the house or there will be a dictatorship and I will die in a political prison camp and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I also fear my parents will want to celebrate come to my house on New year's Eve and they will see how messy my cupboards and wardrobes are and they will evict me and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am afraid we will die in a car crash on the way home or that my parents will want to come to my house on New year's Eve, see how messy my cupboards and wardrobes are and evict me or that my father will want to go to the village of my late great-grandfather on New year's day and do some work there and that all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

My father has some kidney inflammation and I am afraid he will either die or have to go to the hospital and my family will have to sleep at my house and they will see that the cupboards and wardrobes are messy and evict me and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

My father has fever and I am afraid he will either die or have to spend New year's Eve in hospital and maybe even go to my house and my parents will see how messy the cupboards and wardrobes are and evict me and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am afraid that my father will die from sepsis tonight or have to spend the New year's Eve and tonight in a hospital and that my mother and brother will have to spend the nights at my house and see how messy my cupboards and wardrobes are and evict me that all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I am afraid that my father will die overnight and I will wake up to this news and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I forgot that there is heating on in the house and I set the AC on for the night but it was cold in the rest of the house and I am afraidy dad will turn worse and die or have to spend the night in hospital or that my brother will fall ill too and it will be my fault and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

My father is still not well and he is actually getting worse and I am afraid he will die overnight or in the coming days or go to the hospital and that will happen despite that I write about it here.