failedatlife's Journal (Replies Welcome)

I am going to take a shower but as my air conditioning broke and thete are two more days until the central heating is switched on I am afraid I will fall ill and miss my brother's birthday which is next Saturday and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

The radiator is not working and there is either air in it or the valve is broken and both scare me very much because if the valve is broken I won't have central heating this winter and will have to rely on a portable heater, which, although is brand new, makes me afraid it will flame itself up either by being close to the sofa (it's a leather one) or causing trouble with the electricity and make a fire in the contact. If there is simply air left, I could take it out on my own, but I am scared I will break the radiator and cause a flood and I feel all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I am going to move the portable heater to the other room but I fear a fire will break in the night and I will die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

It's been quite cold in the last couple of days and I am afraid I will fall ill in the days up to my brother's birthday in the weekend and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am afraid that one night, maybe on my brother's birthday, the portable heater or the big stove would cause a fire and my brother and I and maybe my whole family will die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

The washing machine is very slow and I am afraid it's breaking and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I fear that my mother and brother will get in an accident and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am starting to feel not well, I have to go out and buy something in my lunch break and I fear I will fail ill for my brother's birthday tomorrow and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

Today is my brother's birthday and I have the terrible feeling that we are all going to die in a car crash and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I also fear that my parents will search the wardrobe and cupboards and see how messy they are and evict me and that will happen despite that I write about it here.