failedatlife's Journal (Replies Welcome)

I did a very stupid thing at my job that I might get fired for. So we work with personal data and parr of that is taking pictures of the people calling us (I work in a call center doing video identifications) and sometimes we'd be sending pictures of funny looking customers in the work chat so that we could laugh and today I did thar but as a total noob I did the right button of the mouse copy command and it got recorded in the call and as they check every conversation theyay consider this a big breach of security and I will get fired I feel so stupid and scared.

Ohhh no! Well hopefully they'll just write you up or something. Let us know what happens! Hugs, if wanted.

Not me waking up and immediately thinking of a possible scenario where I get fired. Recently I was going well with the job - good results, sassy comebacks at the stupid coworkers in the pauses, some nice guy I can have fantasies about at least, so I guess that it was going to happen something bad and I would lose it all (still not happening but I sense it extremely strong). Coupled with all the fears about going to my grandparents next month and getting attacked and murdered and the fact that it will be difficult to me to adapt to a new workplace (to the point where I am starting to think I will never have any money for the rest of my life), starting to contemplate suicide and on top of that thinking that my parents will come the day after tomorrow, when I am off work and will have the time to clean the house, a perfect morning, I guess.

Regarding the situation with that guy, I am starting to think that maybe this stupidity will be the reason I won't have time to get to know him, as I might be fired.

I am even starting to think that I will have an awful year. Or that my parents will come tomorrow and see that the house is dirty. And that even writing here or telling someone about it won't help. Same for the situation at work. I am feeling nuts already.

It turns out it might be worse. The owners of the company are here for 3 days (they live in another country) and I am afraid they may detect the copy while they are here and I might be fired (I did delete the chat where I sent the pic though) or that this might happen next week or month when we get our quality reports. It's driving me crazy and I think I might have a heart attack. I am starting to think all this stress and stupidity may take their toll on me

I also had an "enlightenment prophecy" feeling a month ago that I might get fired for some misuse and I didn't tell anyone. I am starting to think it may come true.

I'm still thinking this may be the last time I am having a late shift at work, or next Saturday will be the last, it is so pervasive it's driving me crazy.

It seems to get worse, the owners of the company are coming tomorrow for 3 days, and I am starting to think that it can be assumed I sent the photo to someone else, then deleted the chat, but he sent it to another person and it is still in the chat or that the feedback comes with recommendations for me to get fired and I do get fired I am so scared.

Tonight I fell on the ground and cut my hand on some glass. I disinfected and plastered it immediately but I had that thought that something would go wrong and I will die from sepsis. Just a silly thought.