failedatlife's Journal (Replies Welcome)

I have the feeling that either my father will die in hospital or I will get a heart attack and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

My father says he feels better, but I am afraid that it is a false impression and he will die in the hospital ir after getting out and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

Tonight as I was watching tv I got a deja vu where this night I get a heart attack and die and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am having some irregular heart rate and I am afraid I will get a heart attack and die and that will happen before my birthday and despite that I write about it here.

failedatlife wrote:I am having some irregular heart rate and I am afraid I will get a heart attack and die and that will happen before my birthday and despite that I write about it here.

You're going to have to de-stress some!

I'm trying but it's hard I am already imagining someone from my family will die in a car crash or I will die from a heart attack on my birthday tomorrow and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I also have a very pervasive thought right now that I will swallow my tongue and die in my sleep or before falling asleep and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I am also afraid I will choke on my saliva and die in my sleep and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I still have a pervasive thought that I will swallow my tongue or choke on my saliva and die overnight or that later in the day I will get a heart attack and die (or overnight) or that my brother or my family will die in a car crash or freeze to death or that will happen to my parents and my brother will be alone and that all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

I still have this pervasive thought I will either swallow my tongue or choke on my saliva and die in my sleep or while I'm awake and I also fear I will get a heart attack and die and that all that would happen despite that I write about it here.