Ebo's Journal (replies welcome)

Dec 1, 2015


This is my first day here, so I will try to be as brief as possible. Having issues with life, not as if it was something new to me, but I am glad I found this site, since have had multiple recurrences, and now I am taking this step to try to avoid getting another one. I was recently locked out of a philosophy forum, and had a journal there, for approximately 3 years,motioning on many issues besides psychological ones.

A strange co-incidence. Happened when I received my user name, which happened to be the same one, as I received at another philosophy forum. So having been informed by someone alluding that I am a
a 'schizotypal personality', I feel, that with a co-morbid paranoid personality, I am justified, as to the games played.
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Game theory, mixed with the games people play, interpreted as some kind of techno-psychological investigation, is an anomalie of my involvement here.

I will not elaborate the above, only signifying, that the beginning of my troubles was my take and involvement of the Jewish Problem, as far as a latent dynamic with an evolution of a complex personality, which have unfortunately have not resulted into a successfully adapted personality.

This thought is both, self serving and therapeutically optimistic, and the guardedness needs to be exhumed, if I would or could prevent my self image to degrade to the level of inquiry, which Sartre poses, for a hundred pages, in his treatment of 'the look'', in his Being and Nothingness'.

In other words, this self serving attitude, may be seen, and interpreted, as has casually been thought of as the 'Jewish Science'. But, on the other hand, the benefit to be gained, may ignite a power to overcome this weight of a reduced personality, inviting solitude and analysis, perceived as a very negative trait.

Besides the Jewish Problem, to which, anti semitism has propped up a few times, quite reverentially real, -such as alluding to the final solution, in my experience, the other issues relating to the complex
are weird and disfunctional family relations, and over the top expectations. (Of me), by significant others.

This last rejection by a philosophy forum ,whose name I will not indiscreetly mention, hurt, especially as, philosophy and my involvement in this forum was suddenly and without much credible reason was
cut short.

Especially, since the forum is very biased toward reactionary politics prone to Darwinian-Nietzchean points of view.


Well I pretty well exhausted the substantial dynamic aspects of my troubles, leaving other issues , of life experience to further elaborate, such as symptoms, psychosocial troubles, addictions, and past thereaputic history.


Hello everyone in the site, and I hope to get to know as many people as possible, keeping in mind the wish to balance relations to adhere to required and realistic boundaries.

Thank You.

My wife is leaving me, for another man, a new crack at happiness, and I am very conflicted. I have started to smoke grass, but stopped drinking. I fear for her, because she is such a child, while trying to be happy, over her new found life. It's a pain in heart, I can not alleve. God help her.