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Hi! It’s been a while. 11 years or so!

There would be so much to update about since how my situation was 11 years ago (obviously. How horrible if I were to stay in the same life situation for that long!). So, I’m not gonna do that.

Today is an okay day. Yesterday I somehow ended up watching a DID channel, which I do from time to time. But what I wasn’t expecting, was not to really recognise myself as myself in the mirror. It made me uncomfortable and I’m wondering if it actually was an alter being co-on or something, or if it was just me imagining things.

We’ve stayed inside our room for most of the day except for a walk. When I feel like I’m “blendy” or however to word it, it feels the safest to not meet too many people in case I’m acting different, voice changes, body language and so on.

I wish you a good day and take care!

Ttyl,
- Host

I’m having a hard time. Someone is having a hard time.

I guess I’m sort of provoking the entire thing but I’m so doubtful about the whole thing. One moment I think “it’s all in my head” (pun intended, since it quite literally is), and the next I feel my body walking differently to me as well as my posture and facial expression change (I obviously don’t know what it looks like myself but I can sort of feel it). Also, that knowledge that whatever feeling clearly isn’t mine. Like, how could that be if it isn’t someone else?

I’m happy to at least be able to quite clearly distinguish when a feeling isn’t mine. It pops up and I try to handle it but it’s hard when I don’t know why they feel the way they do, like how am I supposed to sort it out?

- Jen

Things has been rocky the past few days. But I’m going away with a friend to their parents’ cabin for a couple of days. I’m really looking forward to it. It generally makes our mental health so much better, at least when we are there. It’s gonna be a welcomed rest from all the chaotic stuff that’s currently going on in our “normal” life.

- Jen