xod_s journal:plz feel most free to respond

Some more stuff I'd like to have said b4 my dad entered the room and I finished posting lest he see the big long writing I was doing but instead he just commented on how the carpet behind me is sorta turned up and commenting on the temperature outside is that I may never look like Kim Kold but ...^1

I'm thankful for how on the 26th (I think^2) in Mohawk's computer room in I-wing on the ledge in the corner where ppl leave behind magazines (and apparently books as well) up for grabs I found something that so rare-like to myself that even with the lack of space I have from the few but dense and long unrread books I have I found one that caught my attention enough and intrigued me enough to take it home;"Elementary principles of chemical processes 3rd edition" by Richard M.Felder and Ronald W.Rousseau,2005.

What makes this different from typical chemistry textbooks like the leftover textbook and answer book I had on analytical chemistry which I recently donated or typical intro books like a "chemistry for dummies" book I donated way before or intricate books on lab instrumentation that you can find in a library.Unlike typical chemistry which is used in the realm of quality control this book is about chemistry in *process* control;that is to say chemical *engineering* .I'm pretty f---g surprised by how it's not like super big and thick and roughly the same sie as a run-of-the-mill high school math book.It even has a tutorial CD in here ^_^ .Skimming thru it,it's not as wildly esoteric as you would think.Mostly some stuff on thermodynamics amidst typical stoichiometry,some do-able formulas and equations,just a few summation symbols and I only ran across 1 integral symbol and if you know or remember such terminology from high school you'd know I talking about stuff that's not too bad.I think one way of defining engineering is science work on an industrial magnitude as done by "science oriented" mathematicians (that defn of what an engineer is,is what I was in essence told when I meet an engineering student once).

My "educated guess" on a "chain of duties" is with help from this video which was quite nice in explaining the engineers and other experts involved in building a high skyscraping building
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chl5_z-gkWg:

-process control:chemical engineers.This I already know b/c they told us in school that identifying and testing substance composition is for quality control ppl (chemists) whist those monitoring each process in the steps of production is for those on quality assurance duty (chemists again)

structural analysis:mechanical,civil sorta depends on the scale and function.A mechanical engineer might be doing structural analysis on an airplane (and by that same token an "aerospace engineer" b/c of the seeming speciality on account of such work) but whether structural analysis on a building would mean taking a look at mass scale HVAC and piping concerns (mechanical) or
the integrity of the building's physical and material frame concerns (civil) depends on what your call on it is.

industrial engineering:traditionally mechanical or electrical engineering work I'm guessing

instrumentation:depending on the devices or tools structure and function,who ya gonna call?

"energy" engineering:primarily having to do with power-transmission/distribution/protection concern it's an electrical eng. concern but undoubtedly involves help from mechanical and structural ppl.You wanna go out looking for a *nuclear* engineer while your at it or is it possible that more pure physics specialists could fit the bill and safety?,how do you do it France `_` ?

geotechnical:for all those funky endevours in a variety of terrain like when you wanna do mining or some funky landscaping that maybe might be for farming (agricultural engineering?) or whatever resources you wanna manipulate and control like divert water resources in a region.This is what's making it a bit different from civil eng-ing I guess that you could say "enviromental" engineering (to whose's favor:nature's or the a human's?) but..

"enviromental" engineering:for all your "green" concerns and desires for evaluation to "green" standards sympathetic with enviromental well-being

agricultural engineering:yet another multidisciplinary duty to fufill where it might mean whatever you want it to be whether it's making farm machinery,a property in a crop yield doing something with your needed animal waste and water management

Value engineering:risk,cost and commercial management and planning.A quanitity surveyor in the construction industry is a good example but why do I think that a or some crafty accountants can be all on this ?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Political_science

" 'social' engineering": ?... :mrgreen..in politics,computer *security* lest hackers get ya.. who else is using it?..

human engineering: ...ergonomics mainly but it does sound sorta sinister doesn't it?

systems analysis:could be done the work of electrical,computer or software engineers or a regular mathematician on hand who just so happens to be into what vaguely could be called scientific

"knowledge engineering":a vague phrase for the work of computer,software engineers in cahoots with marketing and image specialists teaming up for the sake of business rep[utation]

genetic engineering:now even though MacMaster might actually have degree with such a name I'm guessing that no one will panic if their pharmacuetical project can't go on if they can't find anyone with a degree saying exactly this.Just add regular life sci ppl like biochemists and biologists,give'em some different in terms of responsibilities and duties tasks and you have a titular "genetic engineer" I'd think .You wanna make a few bacteria with efficient industrial waste consumption powers or whatever a kajillion times more than maybe get a chemical enger slap a title a/o duties on them whilst telling'em to brush up on bio and you got a "bioengineer" I suppose.Or get one with that on there degree from Mac U up here

electronic engineering:It might be an understatement if you think "high power annd voltage usage-for electrical enger and low power and voltage users=electronic engers".The intricacies of circuits & hardware of devices are the concerns you'll be making decisions on whilst interacting with other semi-conductor related jazz here I guess.A few more designing duties than what they'd give an electrical enger at a power plant and I'm guessing they know at least a lil'bit more about computer data than an electrical engineer,eh?.Maybe it's computer engineer by all other titles who would work as sweetly.But if it's say medical equipment like building an MRI it might be a biomedical person your looking for and maybe even a nuclear engineer for your radiation using concerns like making x-ray an CAT scan machines

computer engineers:mainly hardware and circuitry b/c there are software engers for big scale data and complicated programming concerns and network engineers meaning to go out and connect as well

military engineering:once upon a time it mainly meant ppl who had to be effective at making barracks,bridges and fortresses post-haste.That's why seeing to bringing non-military building into manifesting became known as *civil* ( like civilian) engineering.This is still done today but the specialities of others brought in to work on weapons and "who knows what else?" is anyone's guess

Food engineering:get a guy who wonder around wikipedia to think of a scenerio where you'll need ppl doing structural analysis on a building (civil),needing special HVAC (mechanical) and electrical distrubution requirements that'll all be sending lots of info to control center of some kind (systems analysis and whoever you wanna put there) b/c you don't wanna have the nutrition of the tonnes of food (chemical?,bioenging?) made from wholesome organic ingredients to screw up in your food factory

In the face of obscene university tuition fees,low a--- job prospects for those graduating that seem like they'll still be being stagnant for a while which is added pressure for schooling that is hard as f--- and can leave you alone with your stress on subjects that only like hands-full of ppl truly understand^4 I could see that in the future a lot of duties in the industrial side of STEM fields being delagated more and more to technicians and technologists coming out in fair numbers/amounts from *community colleges* NOT universities as much.

Oh and don't forgot;despite the scoffing that non-STEM fields^3 get STEM fields and really anything science related esp.when done in the privatized world of commercial and efficient endevours is I'm guessing pretty f----g stressful AND with it's own set of ethics that oughta be attended to like how STEM field workers in medical fields do there thing.Do in academic fields `_` oh there just mad scientists having a ball going wild.JUST KIDDING ,they have ethics that they formulate for experiments.Who's following it and why not is anyone's call.I'd be weary whenever a STEM field person is under the wing of military though `~` ..

I don't do optimism wholeheartedly very often unfortunately but to all those students in STEM fields out there I throw out this token for you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-AxjfHZLByw

^1 I actually can't think of something to fill in their

^2 My point is a few days ago

^3 Science,technology,engineering and mathematics field...honestly the stupidly done oversight on how that *M* can be used for social sciences in ways that ARE NOT about business objectives of mass money fetishes all around via (self?) destructive (or externally directed) consumption is gonna bite us in the a--- hard one day -_- that it might be the near death of us

^4 the work I mean,not the implicative psychological,philosophical,social etc implications on your life I mean,on the individual scale or interactive one like with family and romantic relationship partners I mean.

I dream of setting in the backyard for hours on end in hot weather actually doing sci and math problems from the textbooks I have -u- .

I feel bad for dismissing the psych textbooks my dad gave to me years ago as garbage.I was so "possesed" by this "final craziness" before the f---g collapse that would spur me to get the f----k outta the first school and arrive in the 2nd one once my mind reached full circle at 17.Now that I know better about what psych is I wish I could have those textbooks again so I can *properly* read them as objective information and not just means to affirm what I want it to mean.

While I don't drink,it feels like my mind acts like its own self-obessisive stimulant at times making me write for long times at end during times when I either shouldn't really be on a computer

Unlinear sentence insertion:Someone in food's class who I got along well with actually said "What an a---hole" when I didn't want to take the most of the chili we made in food's class,that I tepidly suggested we not make before but the (day after I think?) he cheerfully said "See ya later [xod_s]" when I was in a group with him again.

or would be using my time for wiser decision like homework time,which I admit got taken up with the stuff I wrote yesterday.

Maybe I mentioned this already but I can't readily remember this morning but I shoulda taken that piece of chocolate from yesterday and saved it for some birds or squirrel to throw at today on my way outside.

Spieldberg's CGI Tintin characters have striking resemblances to the live action actors from the 60's "and the blue oranges" and "golden fleece movies.

I liked the 90's cartoon as a lil'kid which was nicely "explorer" actiony cartoon similar to Duck Tales with a similarly simple design but even more "hardcore" a lil'bit.

I liked the 90's "legend of white fang" cartoon and speaking of canines in Alaska I now see this scene from "Balto" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAkDnIQ0yS8 in a new light as I can see how that wolf might've been Kiba from "Wolf's rain" taking a break and showing going across a multiverse barrier to help Balto out.Just add the first few seconds of the "Stray" song at the end .

Why/htf are my siblings "normal" next to me?

The whole Aspergers thing aside?.

They don't think in the same amounts as you xod_s ,they shrug off more issues than you ^1 but you don't really do that.You've NEVER been into that.Always question,always know,always have curiosty and the urge to explore to spur you anywhere.

I'm might not come off finishing this with full satsifaction as there's other things and sleep I wanna do right now.

^1 It's a form of acceptance though you sometimes see it as compleny which "it can [develop to] be" acceptance but it's sometimes as false a notion as thinking that guilt is the same as a sense of responsibility

You like using the blog more b/c for these sorta things b/c aside from the supposed attention increase given b/c of the way I think it pops up on entering the site,there is the way these are all seperate entries with their own titles given..

Gotta work on that thing;not being so obsessive to crave attention.

-After weeks of going to the school gym my interest in white women has gone up to "at max" 1.5% and the idea of marrying a Caucasian women isn't as unappealing.

-JKD is better thought of as a training method not a style.Bruce had to live with ppl calling it a "style",b/c hey semantics?.

-There's a journal on another website out there where I go even more revealing and write my "better stuff" ^~^ (?).

-Socionics is an interesting way to mix in personality psych like the Myers-Brigg with sociology.

-This might seem kinda stupid but ever since I read the non-canon "Elseworld line" DC comics graphic novel "Kingdom come" years ago the part where Superman tells Orion "you know what they...in time all good men become their father"^1 has really stuck to me and how it^2 applies to me.I know it seems really stupid to worry about become like your dad in ways like you don't wanna esp.if an insignificant line from a comic book is the teasing that's troubling you but still...I really dont want that to come true and apply to,seeing as how I've always been commented to be like dad in my bad temper.It's actually a line that my mom and siblings use among the family^3 when one of us get's angry a/o authoritative.

-I think that what alternative rock like Nickelback,Evanescence and Creed^4 was in the early 2000's is what the contemporary indie^5 rock music that has taken off since like 2 years ago on the radio is now.Sometimes stereotyped to be done by a buncha 20-something "hipster" posers with (what I'm noticing to be) soft lighting in the music videos sometimes accompanied by close ups of someone playing instruments like a fiddle outdoors in a field.Personally I liked Imagine Dragon's song and video but with the addition of Knedrick Lamar's part at the Grammy's that has stuck "catchingly" in my mind now as part of the song.

-Okay all these those superscripts with the notes that I go on writing after?.Does that say something about my mind?.Like is my "attention" in a sense (even if this is writing we're talking about) divided?.I've been doing that custom in my irl diary for years and I'm doing it now with my online stuff b/c such big notes don't always fit and flow good with what I put in brackets.I remember years ago in high school reading that if someone uses brackets to often it can mean they're really self-conscious..not arguing with that .

^1 Orion's dad was actually Darkseid a very powerful alien diety A-list villain who Orion had fought for years before finding out that he was actually adopted and Darkseid was actually his dad (who he kept on opposing).In that storyline he had already defeated Darkseid,took leadership of the planet Apokolips from his tyrant dad but from what Superman said he turned out not much far off from his dad even having grown his hair and beard in a way that inadvertedly shaped his face like his dad's

^2 =~= Maybe..I'd rather it not

^3 "Yay [dad's name] don't be so mad" to the person who's getting mad sorta like if you were to think someone was being to didactic and you "Yeah okay there [a teacher's name]" to them.Your reminding/comparing them to someone that is unliked for a behavior they have.

^4 And "My chemical romance" to some extent. Wasn't there an issue with how unclear it was as to what kind of rock genre they did ?.

^5 Or "psuedo"-indie wannabe b/c some of the bands are actually more so made by corporate committees trying to make them look independant and unique sorta like the "totally radical" trends of early to mid 90's with was a contrived mass marketed attempt at trying to seem cool and rebellious but in hindsight is actually sorta (painfully ^-^ ?) cheesy.Maybe after some time and hidsight we'll be abe to see how some of this stuff was just as planned out.

I actually saw a mouse that frighten our budgies hop up at night time to eat their bird seed.

..yes I'll actually admit to saying there's a mouse at my house -_-

in a half-a--- attempt to kill it I angirly threw a heavy water bottle I had at it like 2 seconds after it tried running away.All that did was needly scar the budgies into flying around in fear for a moment.I feel bad for that -_- .

Privacy doesn't exist anymore when it comes to the internet, right?.I mean I could see how the NSA and equivalents in other countries would look at stuff like on forums b/c I mean it's sorta "public" in a sense,we put this out in the open.

But if they peer into individually private things like ppl's cloud drives..that's when I'm concerned .

2 buses that I just missed 4 the way home,in fronta me -~- ,passed me.

Mom's fondness of watching Smurf's when she was a little girl seems to be with her (for now) as she watches “Smurfs 2” in spite of the likeable hokeyness I see,me not being to familiar with the Smurfs.

Writing a assignment for “race an ethnic dynamics class” (a kinda sociology class).Was gonna put a posting on how can I better at not falling for being impressible when it comes to offensive sterotyping statements (in this fictional society X is sterotyped on Y irl group but the part about X group being child neglecters and greedy resonates with me when thinking abou Y group but I know better than to think that Y group is like that when for me ethnicity issues are something I put a lotta thought into 4 various reasons and not just b/c I'm taking this class.

But first there's a more important assignment I gotta do 4 that class ' _ ' ..

After seeing the like equivalent to 8 tablespoons of brow sugar my mom put for like (an equivalent ratio of) 32 tablespoons of non-rice based horchata I sorta regret having been drinking it everyday since we got some from El Salvador '~' .Good thing I mix it with milk for arguablly enhanced nutrition.

Submitted a mediocre (I suspect) essay type assignment for the race and ethnic dynamics class I like with minutes to spare.~20 minutes late I submit a lousyly made bibliography.Darn you APA formatting -_-.

I thank God for the bean soup I'm enjoying right now.