I have already posted a thread on this somewhere on the forum but I feel like I didn't explain myself very well. I'm 18, male and from England. I haven't been diagnosed with OCD but my mother has mentioned she has OCD tendencies, but I don't know if she's been diagnosed. For what that matters.
For the past 3-4 days, I have had a reoccurring thought of "Are you gay?". It's almost as if my brain is asking me a question. It's been almost all day, coming and going. At first, I was like "No, I'm not gay" but the question kept reappearing. I tried to just ignore it, but the more I did, the more it appeared. It feels like a constant question. I feel confused and kind of upset.
I've always loved girls, dated them, felt feelings for, engaged in sex with and so forth. I am currently dating someone now for whom I have feelings for her and feel sexually aroused when we're kissing etc. But this question seems to be stuck in my mind.
My attitude towards homosexuality is a comfortable one, I have gay friends and family and don't feel it's a shameful thing, like a lot of society seem to. I wouldn't be bothered If I was gay or bisexual, but I know I'm not. I don't feel attraction towards men.
In the past someone has asked me If I'm gay, in a joking manner, and I've laughed it off and thought nothing of it.
I just want to not be phased by the thought, instead of dwelling on it.
Any help appreciated.