I think I have Obssessive Compulsive Disaorder

somtimes when i get mad and i cry, i think i see the twillight zone..
i see life after this, like im seeing photo negatives..
and i have crush on this guy and somehow i found his website on internet and i personally saved all his pictures in my folders.. i look at his online journals... but when i see him in the class i freeze and i cant do anything.. i act like im not looking at him..
also i think about how im going to kill people.. even my closest people.. when i get upset im so different and crazy... i fantasize about crimes.. and i feel like im dying.. like i have nothing.. i hate my face and my body.. i spent 5hrs every night to figure out what i will wear the next day.. i get naked in front of mirror and i just sit there and look at my body.. i feel like nobody will love me untill i die and ill never get married or what.. and somtimes i think i have psychic energy.. like predicting things..

whats wrong with me? i think im suffering depression

Sweety, I know some of what you are saying. You really should not say things like that about yourself. Your existence is as much a miracle as anyones.

You need to learn to like yourself first, before you get involved with someone. And listen, I know how you feel. I have never had a boyfriend and I feel like nohody will ever want to marry me either, but you know what, there are so many different people out there who we will come to meet and I am sure more than one of them will love us.
Another thing, I think there is a reason why I have never been with someone, I simply have not been ready, I might not even have coped with it.

The thing is however you look you are beautiful, it´s just the way it is.