Desperately need help!

I've posted about this so many times in the hope I'll find reassurance, but now I've realised that with every piece of reassurance, there's another way round it. I've never been diagnosed with OCD, but the way I keep having obsessive-compulsive ruminations about this seems to come under pure-o so this felt like the best place to post at the moment. It's basically about when I was around a child and I got an erection, I can't quite remember if it was spurred on from contact or something (I remember cheering him up cause he was sad, like patting his back and stuff), and I kind of assume not because I'm not attracted to children at all. I've probably come across almost every cause possible and they all suggest it was nothing to worry about, but since I only ever get an erection from contact from someone I'm attracted to, I just automatically ASSUME that I must have got one because of physical contact which would then mean I am attracted to kids, except I'm not and I know that for a fact. However even in knowing this, I just can't stop that thought that I just mentioned from constantly jumping onto my mind. I even try telling myself 'you aren't attracted to kids so why should it matter?' but this doesn't work. I've even tried accepting that I may be sub-consciously attracted to kids, but that concept just seems ridiculous and even the idea made me feel terrible. This is seriously dragging me down and I've got NO clue how to get over it, obviously reassurance isn't what I need as there's always a way around it, and if I tell myself it doesn't matter because I'm not into children, the thought 'but you got an erection around one/maybe from contact with one so you must be' always springs to mind. I've tried all the 'cures' for these intrusive thoughts, but because mine has some actual physical evidence to it, it's a little different to other peoples obsessive thoughts and so there's not really a suggested way around one like this. Does anyone have any idea how I could just believe myself that I don't like kids and get on with my life? Thank you ever so much for reading/answering

I don't believe you are attracted to kids. I think with OCD the mind 'finds' something to obsess over You find the idea of being a paedophile so terrible that the fear of it has made it loom large in your mind, so large it has taken over your thoughts.
You say you have tried all the usual cures, have you tried 'Tapping' it can be very effective.
Go to your doctors and tell him how you feel, he might arrange therapy for you, there are meds that can help as well.

hey, thanks for your reply. I've never actually heard of tapping, what does that involve? And as for the doctor, I've been referred to a counsellor but unfortunately the waiting list here can be quite long, and the thought of putting up with these intrusive thoughts for much longer is unbearable. Thank you again

There are several tapping websites with free videos.

This might help;
Tapping therapy: curing physical and mental problems - Telegraph
http://www.telegraph.co.uk › Health › Wellbeing

I'm puzzled though, have you talked to your doctor about this your OCD?

Thanks, I'll check it out

And yeah, I discussed how I'm feeling with him, and he was able to get me free therapy on the NHS (not sure if you're in the UK but that's how it works here). I heard from the therapist yesterday and am supposed to be seeing her fairly soon-ish, I hope, haha