OCD?

Hello. I've been fighting Lyme disease for a while now and I know that it has caused my anxiety/panic attacks and that helps relieve some stress for me because I know where they are coming from. However, before I knew that my panic attacks were from Lyme (which have now ceased after treatment!) I thought I was going crazy. I started thinking that I was going insane all the time. I thought "what if I hurt my family". "What if I go crazy and become a murderer and stab a family member". I would start crying and shaking because I love them so much and I was so worried I would do something. It used to send me into a terrible panic attack.

With treatment for Lyme my anxiety has gotten better but there are still days where I have those obsessive thoughts again of "what if i'm crazy or evil". "What if I hurt someone and get locked up in a mental hospital". I am getting better about ignoring those thoughts but I just feel so awful. I feel tremendous guilt. I picture myself harming someone and I feel so sad and wonder why this is happening. If i'm having these thoughts then I must be some type of psychotic murderer. But i'm such a gentle person. I love people and animals and do not want to harm anyone.

I feel like I will go to hell because of these thoughts. I feel so guilty I don't know what to do anymore. Please help.

Guess i'll try my luck on another forum

I am no psychiatrist and I bet most here aren't. I just have OCD myself and what you describe sounds a bit like it, my thoughts are different but the thought of hurting someone is quite common among people with OCD. Here is another post from someone with similar thoughts. obsessive-compulsive/topic81149.html