Mindfulness in the shower and the need to be relaxed

I take a half an hour in the shower. This is when I'm barely using mindfulness.
Examples of this include, "I'm washing my toes", "I'm shampooing my hair", "I'm rinsing my face".
Not only am I too depressed to use it but I don't have the positive attitude to turn the comments
into "I feel the shampoo glistening in my hair", and afraid of speaking too loud for my parents to make a comment.

I had a thinking ritual of replacing a bad thought (loathing washing) with a good thought (loving washing) and
having a war with myself over the thoughts but this is disappearing.

The medication is controlling internal distressing time-wasting thoughts of being a kareoke singer, or suicidal obsessions
(including plans and images of carrying it out), images and noises of being a criminal probed by police and bashing the police,
and images of planning to run away from home. But medication can't handle this alone.

So now I waste time rinsing myself off worrying with generalized/social anxiety about whether I'll get any friends and about how many places
I need to go to make friends and whether I'm able to have a sense of humour. I probably need to go into the GAD forum because I rock
backwards and forwards from anxiety and get muscle tension and shakiness. 2 friends agreed to meet for coffee at pottery but they were
not at the class so I left my details with the teacher and they haven't contacted me yet.

I want to improve my shower speed from 30 minutes to 15. With the slowness side effect from the medication.

The increased Benzotropine (Cogentin) from 1 tablet 3 times a day to 2 tablets twice a day makes me move faster with less Parkinsonism from the Risperidone. I now don't have to think about what I need to do to get ready. I can do it without thought while still being mindfully aware. (The mindful sayings still help, and I'm no longer depressed.)
17 minutes can be improved on. Perhaps I'll be able to drive a car but it would cost more money. Riding a bike would be more outgoing.

Still uncertain about pursuing friendships though. There is that trust that needs to be built up before hand. All the questions one needs to ask, the statements one needs to make, the sense of humour being an optional extra!

Does anyone have any hints on friendship - I could ask the Social Phobia forum - or alleviating obsessions and compulsions either in or out of the shower (before, during and after)?