POCD and dreams...please help

Hi all,

Just wanted to share something that's new to me and that I don't quite know how to handle.
I have had POCD for years now. But last night I had some weird dreams. Throughout, I was very aroused (excuse the graphic nature of this!)...it was almost like a 'sex'dream. I remember at one point there being a lot of little girls round for some reason, and I ended up 'letting go' and enjoying the fact that they were there and watching me be aroused. I think I orgasmed in my sleep. In my dream I then felt terrible because I had let these girls watch that and felt like I had abused them and they would be scarred, which they may well have been in real life.
When I woke up I wasn't questioning or doubting as usual, I just felt really really depressed and sickened with myself. It genuinely feels like I have committed a crime and 'enjoyed' partaking in sexual activity around a child, because that is exactly what I did in the dream. Is our subconscious reflective of our character? How do I deal with this guilt?

Thanks

Hey! This was only a dream, it has nothing to do with your character or your choices. You didn't do anything wrong and you have POCD as you've said, so that must be what's causing the doubt and guilt.