ocd or schizophrenia

Hi all,

I am going to tell you my personal story. Please send me a message to lclosama@terra.es if you want to get in touch with me.

My whole story is as follows :

My first OCD outbreak was when I was in the University, by that time my OCD got so worse that I had a psychotic outbreak and I made a real mess. Luckily it was not necessay to go to a mental hospital. We stopped the psychosis and OCD outbreak with Anafranil and Mellaril.

After getting the computer science degree i went to live in Barcelona and I worked there for about three years. After some months working I started thinking that my work colleagues were conspiring against me because i was too lazy. I started with meds again and the episode of OCD and paranoia stopped.

In 1999 I went to live to a flat and let a guy share the flat with me. After I while i got paranoid of him and i also got paranoid at work up to the point that in March 2000 I had to take the meds again (anafranil and mellaril). The paranoia remitted.

In 2000 I went to live and work to Austria and after some months living there i got paranoid of a colleague at work because I thought that he was saying that I was mad and I went to see a psychiatrist there and he gave me 40mg Prozac which didn"t help to stop the paranoia. In december 2000 I left the firm and I was without work.

In 2001 i started working as IT and everything went fine until my first holidays in Barcelona. When I left the Airport the paranoia started again. Many people were saying that i was crazy. Everywhere I went people was saying that. I was awful. I didnt" realize that that was paranoia this time and i didn"t go to see any psychiatrist. When I came back from my holidays the same thing happened in Austria, people everywhere was saying that I was mad. By that time I thought that I was in the newspapers or something like that because I couldn"t find a cause of what was happening to me. I started thinking againg that my work colleagues or my boss were conspiring against me. The paranoia was growing up fast. At the end of July 2002 I left the firm and in October I started hearing voices. There were two voices in the hause where I was living that were talking about what I was doing. I thought I had cameras in my apartment. Then the voices were even talking about what i was thinking and I thought that these two voices came from two parapsychologists in the hause. One time i even had the visual hallucination that saw FBI guy in the entrance door of my hause. The thing got worse and when i went to the cinema or to a bar people were reading my mind and repeating and commenting was I was thinking. It was unbelievable. I didn"t realize that I was getting very sick, and nobody noticed it. I also had the feeling that my thoughts were broadcasted to people. It was terrible. I even thought that people on TV were sending messages to me and I could communicate with them through telepathy.

In March 2003 I went on holidays to Spain and i went to see my psychiatrist and he saw that i had a psychotic outbreak without me telling me anything. I started on meds again but this time it didn"t help because I didn't take enough antipsychotic. I went back abroad and kept on wiht the same psychotic symptoms. I was even talking to myself thinking that i was talking to other people through telepathy.

In July 2003 I went back to Spain because I couldn"t bear anymore that situation I was living in Austria. Then I went to see my psychiatrist and he gave me 20mg Zyprexa and the paranoia stopped. Thanks God. I asked my psychiatrist if I had schizophrenia and he told me that I was just obsessive compulsive and that i had a psychotic outbreak. I went to see another psychiatrist and he told me that I was schizoaffective. By that time that made sense to me, more than the other theory.

In 2004 started working as IT again but i had already mild cognitive impairment and it was very difficult for me to keep on with my job. I could work until March 2005 and then i got the sick leave. In June the Social Security System board for disabilities stated that I was obsessive compulsive, i had paranoid schizophrenia (I told them that I heard voices ...). Since then that I am a pensionist.

Some days ago I found out from three different psychiatrists (one from Spain, another one from Austria and another one from USA) that I don't have schizophrenia but OCD with psychotic symptoms.

Now I take a lot of meds to keep the OCD under control, Zyprexa and Abilify among them.

The curious thing is that I have never been hospitalized. Perhaps it"s because I am not at all aggresive and I don"t get aggresive when I get paranoid. I don"t know.

Now I am doing quite well, I go everyday in the afternoon to a center in my town for mentally ill people and drugaddicts to play cards and other games and that"s the way I spend the time. It"s boring but it"s better than doing nothing.

So, that's my personal story.

I would be glad to hear other stories from you all.

Best regards,
Luis

Hard to say?

It sounds like Paranoid Schyzophrenia with Obsessive thoughts.

Do you have a ritual that helps to relieve anxiety?

IF not...I would tend to say the above.

Parania can be obsessive in thinking...for you can't stop wondering if your being watched. Compulsions is an act that you do to stop anxiety.

It sounds like more PS. I've known people that hear and see things for I worked in psyche. The meds do not seem to be of OCD nature as much..though meds can be used for many types of disorders.

Being obsessed with people watching you would be classified as obsessive thinking. Many disorders have more than one tied to it.

I have OCD with Generalised (Social) Anxiety with Severe Depression.

You might have PS with Obessive thinking.

It's an interesting subject?

Many people who have PS know that the voices are different than what is around them. Many can sense that what is happening with visions and voices are seperated from "reality", which I wonder, what is that to begin with?

Being Christian, many had visions and heard what we can only describe as something from somewhere else.

I'm not making fun of you, by no means. It's fascinating subject...especially in a world that sees such things as illnesses.

It would be very interesting subject to talk about as friends.

As someone who is interested in EVP...what? Paranormal stuff?...

Well... sounds like interesting subject.

Sounds like an interesting thread?

Love to to know what's going on?

Entangled wrote:Hard to say?

It sounds like Paranoid Schyzophrenia with Obsessive thoughts.

Do you have a ritual that helps to relieve anxiety?

IF not...I would tend to say the above.

Parania can be obsessive in thinking...for you can't stop wondering if your being watched. Compulsions is an act that you do to stop anxiety.

It sounds like more PS. I've known people that hear and see things for I worked in psyche. The meds do not seem to be of OCD nature as much..though meds can be used for many types of disorders.

Being obsessed with people watching you would be classified as obsessive thinking. Many disorders have more than one tied to it.

I have OCD with Generalised (Social) Anxiety with Severe Depression.

You might have PS with Obessive thinking.

It's an interesting subject?

Many people who have PS know that the voices are different than what is around them. Many can sense that what is happening with visions and voices are seperated from "reality", which I wonder, what is that to begin with?

Being Christian, many had visions and heard what we can only describe as something from somewhere else.

I'm not making fun of you, by no means. It's fascinating subject...especially in a world that sees such things as illnesses.

It would be very interesting subject to talk about as friends.

As someone who is interested in EVP...what? Paranormal stuff?...

Well... sounds like interesting subject.

Sounds like an interesting thread?

Love to to know what's going on?

Hi,

Where are you from ?

My email address is lclosama@terra.es, in the case that you want to email with me.

Regards,
Luis