gay? HOCD?

Don't we all ?

It isnt as easy as that, there are people that have te same fear for more then 8years because they deal With it wrong...

yeah, theres two things really bothering me,

the fact that I am still going through puberty and have not fully formed so I could be revealing my true self (which I hope a lot won't be true, because I am worrying about it too much)
and the fact that my mind tells me I find different guys attractive (only in phases, when I am in a better mood, I don't find any attractive and only find girls attractive, but if I am in the worse mood, I get out of control and the complusions are even worse and I do them constantly)

There is no such thing as "developing through puberty"

Your sexuality is born with you.
And i cannot change after the age of 12 ( unless you have a severe trauma)

If it is only now that you are doubting, and that before all this you fell inlove with girls and found girls attractive then you are not gay.

So dont worry about that, i found this in official research when i had HOCD.

The only thing that you can have is that you are bi-curious.
Alot of straight men are in puberty, it means that you are wonderig about how sex with a man would be like. Some then actually have sex with another guy even while they are straight. Some never do anything with it and it then disapeared after puberty.

When i found this my HOCD made me wonder " what if i get the oppertunity to have sex with another guy" and my mind told me i would do it.
Now my HOCD is gone and i would never take the chance i would never want to do that.

For those compulsions:
I think you mean that when a guy passas by or something that you automatically try to see if your attracted or not by imagening stuff. And see how it makes you feel.
If this is true then i can tell you that this certainly are compulsions and they are 1 of the 2 major factors of OCD.

ok thanks a lot michael, you've reassured me a lot, I'm sure I'l be back though

Yes you will be back soon, i know.

See you at your next spike then XD

yesterday I got a bit close to this girl and I kissed her and that, but when we kissed she had her eyes closed but I didn't, what does this mean? I felt weird after:(

You can read my response on SIAD you lucky basterd

it felt so good when I did it, but I feel weird now and keep denying it because she doesn't want ti spreading round the school and I don't really