O.C.D-Bizzare Obsessions?

I don't know if this is my o.c.d (which I was diagnosed with 11 yrs ago) but I find myself obsessed with sexual thoughts and acting immature. And sometimes I do, god help to a certain extent. Sometimes I wish I could commit suicide and be reincarnated as a baby.
I know this sounds nuts. Sometimes I feel so helpless, and sometimes I wish I was dead. I'm allways tense, worried, paranoid of people and messed up. God has a strange sense of humor and I don't like it!

natalie_dv@hotmail.com - if you wanna' talk about it more.

What age are you? Knowing this is important.

Your post was a bit sketchy. i'm just wondering - In what situations are you tense?

Chucky wrote:What age are you? Knowing this is important.

Your post was a bit sketchy. i'm just wondering - In what situations are you tense?

I am 32 yrs old. I am mostly tense around kids, or large crowds. I get really tense around a lot of African-American people, Maybe it dosen't make sense to you, but I was almost molested as a kid by one in Detroit, and have bene robbed, piped over the head, hit with brass knuckls, e.t.c. by certain individuals.
I feel like evil thoughts try to tell me to do things. When i was real sick, it said I had to kill my family, but of course I didn't. I feel like their is no place for me on this planet, and I really wish somedays i was dead.
And sometimes I get thoughts of acting in strange or immature ways, and I find myself talking to myself, trying to fend off the impulse or whatever.

There IS a reason behind all of these things that are entering into your immediate thoughts. There are also reasons behind the tension that you feel in certain situations.


Have you ever thought backwards from these? Try to unearth the reason why you are like this. I think that in your case this is important to do. Thinking about these things can make them preventable in the future. My heart is with you on this one.


Also, the diagnosis 11 year ago - Was it just OCD that you wer diagnosed with?

"I am 32 yrs old. I am mostly tense around kids, or large crowds. I get really tense around a lot of African-American people, Maybe it dosen't make sense to you, but I was almost molested as a kid by one in Detroit, and have bene robbed, piped over the head, hit with brass knuckls, e.t.c. by certain individuals.
I feel like evil thoughts try to tell me to do things. When i was real sick, it said I had to kill my family, but of course I didn't. I feel like their is no place for me on this planet, and I really wish somedays i was dead.
And sometimes I get thoughts of acting in strange or immature ways, and I find myself talking to myself, trying to fend off the impulse or whatever."

It sounds like the ordeal with the situation makes you a little paranoid. IF you find thoughts in you head that are uncontrollable, Meds would help those undesirale thoughts go away!

Thoughts that persist in your head seems to be brought about, being the ordeal... and nerons are firing when they are not needed.

I haven't ever gone through that..but..worked in pyshe and knew people who did.

When you sleep and dream..your mind is firing away... and, even though, your body is relaxed...most of the time you find yourself with thoughts and images.

Now, imagine you are awake and you find thoughts coming...anyways?

That's scary... it's like you are "dreaming" when you are awake. You don't want those "day dream" thoughts..you should be asleep.

But, you are awake and these thoughts come in...extra firing of certain brain areas that happen.

Their are meds that help to "sharpen" your mind...or... keep it from happening...like Seroquel..I take that..more for sleep...makes you very drozzy...by is good for an over firing mind. Cause I can paranoid! IF you are constantly worrying and the thoughts go so fast... you can get that way and never know what your thinking!

OCD can lead to Schizophrenia..bad word...totally misunderstood!

Paronia is usually in there somewhere.

Many OCD sufferers have this, too.

Time to quiet the mind and make it shut up.

Me I think too much..so fast that I feel bad and never Know why?

BUt..constant worry can make you dillusional and if they keep going... parania.

TIme to find a "shrink"..Like I have and make unwanted thoughts go away..who needs them?

These meds have side effects...dry mouth...sleepiness..buzzing effect...that was weird?

But..you get used to them and your oK.

For me..slow down the mind... same with you...different reasons.

I wouldn't want to hear stuff I don't want and I wouldn't want to feel like I would hurt anyone..yet, it seems you know that you won't?

Your mind overrides that stuff..smart mind. But, persistant stray thoughts are not good.

You can't tell them to go away..so with the right meds... it helps...

Even with meds... you have to do half the work... it's not cure all.

So if they come... just realise that they come and let them go.

The most important thing is they don't govern you...you govern yourself...

Now..I'm ideas around?

I just don't people being labeled. MAny people have ths and never tell anyone and are fine.

But, if they are very bothersome... I'd get some meds...rmember..they have side effects to get used to..I did?

Paxil...Klonopin..Wellbetrin..Seroquin... I'm a drug store.

Just comment on site and look for replies!

I'llbe around in a couple of days..comment... I'll get an e-mail that you did and we'll talk about it..this is what the forum is for?

Check you later.

I am taking Paxil 60 mg for racing thoughts that are extremely bothersome! I am a prude, but I have thoughts of being sexually involved with a lot of attractive men. I am female, and I am afraid of men, but I have those thoughts! UUGH!
Please consider meds! Paxil is my meds of choice! I like the CR formulas as they stay in you all day long!
Occasionally, I have thoughts of stabbing or stalking someone or pinching cute men on the "rear end" and I never do!
My face turns red and I get really nervous!
I also take fish oil tablets for arthritis and for helping the "moodies". The fish oil aids the Paxil in amazing ways, along with B complex!
The Paxil is the reason I am now enjoying life, and people! I even act perky and bouncy to the point of cracking people up!


There is hope for us ODD OCDers!

Paxil is good...it works depression and anxiety...The PAXILcr is time released and builds up to a point. As you platou...you need more!

I take 50mg...

25mg..by a pychiatrist, works...and 50mg...works and goes to other helpful areas of the brain. Regular Paxil...not time released wears off. If on medicaid?..you need permission...just to get such a "heavy" dose! Wow...Miss Clean has 60!

For me, Paxil is like, "I have a lot on my mind...I feel comfortable...except, if you have a spike of obsessive fear...I tend to override it. Not good...!

Another OCD medication, you need to know, is Luvox and Anaphranil...the latter is the oldest of the OCD drugs...works different in the brain..."somehow"?

What does it feel like?

Makes you buzzed, at first and you get used to it...25mg tid (three times a day) is the starter! The buzzing doesn't go away...but, it's still there...in the background. You just become used to it!

OCD worrier sufferers tend to think in this matter:

Something is coming in the immediate future.."an intervue "You must be able to be in control and find all questions that this interviewer will say, for you need the job, or you still have none!...no control...the person can brush you off so easily...so? How do prepare for that kind of situation? You look at the past and find all things wrong with you...yuck...Then look at the future and see disaster and do it again...present, past..future..again..."

Soon..the world is coming to an end and you don't go on the intervue...PAXILcr appears to allow this process to flow...yet, you don't mind.

For all you anxious people, have taken Ativan? Wonderful...the world comes to an end and..what?

But..extremely habit forming!

For you people who have addictive personalities..like drink alcohol? ..it can be a dangerous drug. There are others within that area.

One that is more safe is Klonopin...another build up drug that is similar to time released and not habit forming...but after ten years of taking it...it gives you memory problems...

Anaphranil is different. You become grounded in the present and the past and the future can wait...it's like tunnel vision of worry...and right now is what you worry about...and you don't worry...because you are in the present! (Past...future...what?)

It's strange to be just "grounded"!..........

Lot's of side affects...Acid refux...dizzinesss at first...

It can impare you!

For instance..I play volleyball and could hit the ball over my head right exactly on the spot and land it where I want to? You can't do that!

The worst! If you have an addictive personality...like drinking alcohol with meds..it makes you high as a kite...and don't remember many things you did. DO NOT TAKE THIS! Take it from someone who did!

PAXILcr doesn't do any of those things...but, a situation can overthrow it's affectiveness. That's the only problem..based on the severity of OCD?

(This is from me..you might have a different experience...but, still good to know!)

All these meds...from Ativan and PAXILcr are...SRUI...Seritonin Re-Uptake Inhibitors...some times SSRI and many different letter combinations.

What does it mean?

There is a gland in your system. What it is, is not important!

The gland behaves like you, trying to find the right volume on a stereo...Too little..need more! ---Too, loud..it distorts!

The gland regulates the amount of Seritonin going in the brain...the "good feeling" hormone. It says how much you should have. This glands perpose is to soak it up so you don't have as much?

What?

It's a sponge. IT says..."This is teh amount you should have. I make sure there is not too much flying around"

SERITONIN (NIce feeling hormone)...REUPTAKE (like a sponge)..out of the system... INHIBITOR..stops the sponge so, it leaves more of that FANTASTIC hormone!

"Anti- " everything is around this area. Anxiety and Depression.

OCD...It is spacific to limiting or gaining chemicals in the brain and doing the above.

So...OCD sufferers..who want to know these medications? That is what they do!

Most Pychiatrists won't even tell you!

My doctor is thinking of giving me meds but I don't know what ones are good, and I DEFINITELY don't want any with side effects of nausea/dizziness/vomiting/acid reflux

I would start with Paxilcr and see what happens.

Those side effects are a worse case cenario.

Anafranil is worse with side effects.

The dizziness and drouziness are like any anti-hystimine you'd get over the counter.

PepcidAC will help with indegestion...no spicy foods. Just try to sit up for most of the day.

All meds have side effects, unfortunately.