Pedophillia/POCD/something else ? Plz help

16 and 13 isnt much of an age gap but if you become 26 and still get off to 13 year olds then i would say your a bit sick. If you just find small petite girls attractive there is nothing wrong with that...im 26 and look like a teenager and I would hope to attract a"normal" guy and not a sicko so some guys just prefer petite girls expecially if the guy is petite himself. So I cant say for sure whether ur a pedo or not...maybe you just like petite girls. Think of a young looking girl your age...do you find yourself attracted to her or when you think about her age do you start getting a little turned off?

When i think of a young lookin girl my age i feel good i guesse, when i think about the fact that she is 16 i get turned off.
Why ? What does this mean?

Michaelconfused: It means you are letting your thoughts win. You are giving into temptation. The devil is putting these thoughts in your head...he wants you to do evil and hurt Gods children and now that you are thinking these thoughts getting off to younger girls with satans help you will be a pedophile who destroys those who are innocent. is that what you want? Do you want prison? Or do you want to give back to society and have a family and not look at your daughter in a sexual way? You must get help before this gets any worse and the Judge decides that castration is the only way to keep you from molesting a little child.

So you are saying that i am a pedophile?

Please don't listen to the last person that tried to say you actually were a pedophile. They don't seem to know anything about OCD. Everything you've said reminds me of myself, and it's apparently reminded other sufferers of themselves too. So obviously it's just part of your ocd. Good news, I seem to have outgrown that particular obsession. Maybe you will too. You may always like smaller girls with boyish figures, but there probably isn't anything wrong with you. I really would recommend a therapist, though.

If you get off to small children...you are a pedophile...end of discussion. Thats not ocd thats just sick

I came here for a different reason to talk about my own problems in a different thread, but let me just say this. I'm 100% sure you're not a pedophile. You know why? Because you're actively worrying and in fear of being one, not to mention you're kaleidoscopic slide down the path of different OCD worries. Just like people with OCD of horrific thoughts of murder or whatever else aren't really murderers or want to put someone into the ground.

If you were a pedophile, pedophiles don't worry about being pedophiles, they just are. It's what's natural to them. You? You're not content with it, it scares you to death and you're going crazy with anxiety just thinking about it.

And then? You overthink about it. You worry so much about it that anyone that fits the description of who you're worried you may be attractive to gets you're blood pumping and you focus in on if you're getting "turned on" by it. And shocker there, a classic self fulfilling prophecy that you think so much about something that it happens Especially something as physically based as anxiety, blooding racing, and getting an erection. Oh, and plus being a teenager. Wow, when I was that young, any girl with a pulse got me going LOL. Baywatch was like a drug to me.

Pedophiles don't worry about being pedophiles. Maybe they worry about getting caught or maybe they worry about trying to curtail their urges so as not to hurt someone else, but they don't worry about the urges THEMSELVES because it's natural to them.

I can't imagine what hell you're going through, but some people here aren't helping with some of their responses. I'm not a professional or anything, but in dealing with my own problems I've had to read a few books on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and you seem like the exact type of case I always run across with horrible sexual imagery and worrying section.

I highly suggest you go get help, but with as young as you are, I understand it causes just as much anxiety coming forward with this than anything else. Trust me though, medication CAN help, and if you can find a doctor to put you on high doses of sertraline (Zoloft) by just telling you have plain horrible anxiety that would help a lot. It seems like you are already on medication but it's obviously not working, so I would ask to change to an SSRI based medication like Zoloft. Also, go to Amazon.com or eBay and start searching for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder books. I have a couple of old ones right here: Freedom From Obsessive Compulsive Disorder by Jonathan Grayson and Getting Control by Lee Baer, if you need suggestions. A top seller list to do with OCD on Amazon should have plenty of suggestions though.

What you'll find is that you can get help and get better, and the key to all OCD isn't suppressing the thoughts but letting them exist and adapting your anxiety response to accept them, and then they go away because they're not causing you problems. The subject matter DOESN'T MATTER. Everyone with OCD thinks they have the uncrackable lock that only they can feel and is so horrific that they could never explain and are doomed, but it's not the case. Good luck, I hope I helped a little.

Spearit wrote:If you get off to small children...you are a pedophile...end of discussion. Thats not ocd thats just sick

Where did i say that i get off on small childeren?
I always got off to girls my age and porn videos( 18+) with 10 exception in the 2000+ times i mastrubated.
I don't get off to kids!
Those fantasies don't arouse me, girls my age arouse me! (yes i tested it!)
I fear i might want to!
I don't know what exactly you are all saying but my reaction to your post about the devil taking me over, well i didn't find it helpfull at all.

Also i have been diagnosed with OCD, i am in CBT and i am taking prozac (medication for OCD)

And i read YOUR tread and you clearly have no idea what OCD is!
You are on the wrong part of the forum (my opinion)


(last replier who's name i cannot see because of phone) thank you , your reply did help me a little.
And i realy needed it because i have been suicidal for a while now.
I hope that you will once get over your obsession

Sounds like POCD, which is what I have. The philosophy of Relativism really helps disable POCD. Try to destroy the absolutes in your mind and embrace a more relativistic, Agnostic view of things. That might help.

Suddenly I don't feel so alone. This is the first time i ve heard of POCD. I thought I saw some sick freak. Eventhough I still feel like one... I feel so alone though I mean I'm 17 and a GIRL! Its not normal