One of the hardest thing about ocd

I think the hardest thing about having ocd to me is trying to act normal around people. I'm always forced to act on my crazy obsessions in public and it's very embarassing because im such a low key person. Let me state again that i have a contamination phobia. One time after using the toilet in a public restroom, i went to wash my hands as usual. A lady eventually walked in at the same time to use the toilet as well. After she was done and came out, i was still at the faucet unable to stop washing my hands even though i really wanted to. I could just remember how embarrassed i was as she kept looking at me, i felt like i was an insane person. Through it all, I feel like i have lost some control of my thinking, it's like my mind controls me. Usually, i do my best to act as normal as i could in public because i wouldn't want to explain my crazy actions to anyone. I don't really have that much people in my life that i could just come out and confess what i'm going through and its hard to truth people sometimes when it comes to my personal life. Recently, I have been making some progress though as i try not to ponder over everyday things like i used to and it does help at times. But i sometimes think to myself what would happen if i was to encounter a situation that would leave me feeling so depress because of my anxiety and would i be able to deal with it ? It's a scary thought, i think thats one of the reasons why i keep myself so isolated most of the time. I'm so desperate to get my life back on track and live freely again. Presently, i'm still trying to learn more about this illness as im getting alot of information from this site and other web pages. Im very hopeful that i will get better though because giving up is not an option and i hope you guys do the same.

Together we can help fight this, i wish you all the best!

Hi, dark cloud! People probably don't notice as much as you might fear they do and a lot of them actually know about OCD.
You could try telling people you meet and who are nice to you that you have OCD, so that you'd have someone on your side in most situations. You could offer to answer their questions about the illness too, it might break the ice a bit and put you in a better position.
What do you think?