obsessive thoughts

I'm not entirely sure what it is, but I end up fixated on certain situations. It can be anything. I start obsessing about the situation over and over in my head and I can't stop until something else comes up and then I start obsessing over the new thing. When I'm obsessing over it in my head, I'll usually play different versions of the scenario in my head including things I'd say and do and other's reactions to it. Literally, I'll spend hours acting these different scenarios in my head. Sometimes I'll actually say the things I'm thinking aloud. I only do it when I'm alone (thank god). It's so frustrating because I can't stop even when I want to and it's super distracting because I'll be too fixated on it to do other stuff. Sometimes it's things that have already happened and I can't change. Sometimes it'll be things that will happen and I get so anxious about saying the right things and not sounding like an idiot that I practice it over and over with different outcomes. I have no idea how to deal with this. It's so damn frustrating. I hate it and most times obsessing over things just ends up making my depression worse.

Hey,

I've got two things to say in response to this: Firstly, it seems that - yes - OCD is playing its part here a bit, but - secondly - do you feel that you have confidence issues too? If you wer a very self-confident person, then you would rarely question decisions that you make in your life. My official diagnosis is OCD, but I also recognised procrastination and a lack of confidence in relation to my decision-making. So, I arrived at a point where I could just make firm decisions and feel confident about them (even if they later turned out wrong). In a conversational context, it's better to speak 'ad-lib' and not to feel restrained. You will not always say the right thing, but by refraining from speaking, you are not being yourself and are indirectly isolating yourself and making your plight worse.

Kevin