help!

ive just admitted to my partner the way i deal with life for the first time even and now that he's opened the gates i need closure my day 2 day decisions are controlled by a series of letters & numbers that change for week 2 week it always linked 2 a name & if the letter is in the name then its postive response if not then its a negetive im not sure when this started but i know ive been like it 4 at least 8 years Ive been reading about OCPD & i dont think it applies im not cold or aloof in fact im 2 emotional & get depressed easily basically i want 2 know where do i go from here???

Your post was very sketchy...


Could you elaborate more on what your problem is? ...please...? You rely on certain letters appearing in the names of people to make decisions in your life?