Is This HOCD

and This is a True Story Not BS
It Started when i went out 1 night with mates and got drunk it was my Best Mates Birthday and i Had a thought about giving him a Hug and a Fake a Kiss and i worried about that and Panicked about that coz i thought it was Gay so i Went in to the "What If" What if i'm Gay, What if i'm Coming Out then i started to watch Porn with Lesbians and i got Erect and Thought I Cant be Gay if i'm Aroused By Girls so then i did some Exposure Therapy and Look at SOme Stuff Nothing happened i didnt get Hard over any gay Images or Videos i just got a Weird awful feeling in my gut and a Weird pain Tingle Responce in my Groin Area Finding it Repulsive and Disgusting Then i realised Its Impossible for me to be Gay Ive Had No Gay Feelings when i was young always liked Girls so then the What if Thing Feeling again What if Im Bi What If Im Bi i Never Been Aroused by Guys Before but now when guys walk past my thoughts in my head are telling me to look at him look at him and myself goes why am i looking at him so i turn away and ignore it when i see a Gay Person on Tv or Read about it or think about it i get the Symptoms At the Top of the Post and try to Recorrect Myself with Exposure Therapy and Exposure Therapy Prevention also Cognitive Behavior Therapy its Like My Mind is Clouded by these thoughts and cant think straight its all i think about 24/7 Whats Your Take?

I Have my Good days and My bad Days But i got an Attitude Like "Just Bring It" I will defeat it

Hi, ConfusedWorriedBoy! Maybe you need to see someone who actually knows what the best therapy is for this and for your case in particular. It sounds like you're just triggering more unwanted, intrusive thoughts. I'm sure it's just ocd and you're not gay. Talk to a professional about this problem, there have been other men who have talked about stuff like this on the forum.