Intrusive religious blasphmous thoughts

Does anyone here struggle with this? With constant unwanted blasphemous thoughts?

Hi, Rainbow_sunshine! Actually, I used to get something like that a few years ago. It was a few sentences in my mind, maybe, but weird thoughts about religious things in general. What is going on with you? Are you getting treatment? Are you ok?

No, I´m not getting treatment so far. I do have OCD and since I was 10, I used to have constant intrussive blasphemous thoughts. It started one night when I was 10 -I prayed before going to sleep and suddenly my mind was full of vulgar cursing words against God. I was scared and immediately prayed for forgiveness. These unwanted blaspemous thoughts continued for years, through my teenage years to adulthood. I never wanted or planned them, they always just came themselves. They came any time, usually they came at night when I was in bed, often when I was praying, which scared me even more. I was so scared of such thoughts, so scared that God would punish me for them and sometimes when something bad happened to me -for example, in the school -I was thinking that it´s God´s punishment for those thoughts. Even three years ago I had such thoughts, really bad, and was so scared.

Now I´m not a believer anymore and don´t have such thoughts anymore. I guess it´s because when I stopped believing in God, I stopped worrying and being scared of them.

Now I have another fear, which is worse. You can read about it in paraphilia forum.

Ok, I see. So the fear about what would happen because of these thoughts isn't there anymore, but may I ask why you're not getting treatment?
I'll look for your posts in the paraphilia forum.

I´m not getting treatment because it´s very hard to find a good therapist. I have experiences with shrinks(because of other problems)and they don´t always do their job well.

Yah, I had a really bad experience with a therapist too, once.. You could look for someone who specializes in what you need, I guess. They might be less likely to mess up.

jasmin wrote:It was a few sentences in my mind, maybe, but weird thoughts about religious things in general.

Same thing with me... it started years ago... and I repeat a couple of sentences in my mind about God ... a particular number of times... especially if I drive by a church... but some other times too... and while I'm doing it I'm always afraid a blasphemous thought is going to enter my mind... and that I'm going to go to hell. So I repeat the sentences in my mind really fast before I can think something blasphemous.