Obsession Over Any Damage and with Tearing-up Trash Papers

I'm in the same boat I literally obsesse over material things they have to be perfect and I mean perfect
If it even has a slight scratch, mark on it anything I dislike it move on to the next thing I buy or exchange for same thing or something else. It's gotten ridiculous I even go out of pocket just to find
A perfect deflawed piece of item jewelry, bag. Mostly jewelry as I find they have less flaws. But all this werid obsession of mine has turned me into maybe abit of a shopaholic to as well as ocd. It's literally bring me down I think about one item I would love to get, doesn't matter how much, I get it and has slight flaw I don't love it no more I move on to the next thing I can find which has to be perfect.
It's a joke I know it sounds silly reading this but to me it's a vicious circle that needs to stop. Because I'm scared in the future when I move in with my boyfriend and I can't pay bills or even a holiday as I have to buy something material for me to feel good in life and be happy it's soo f*ing sad I had it soo much I just can't get the thoughts out my head on why I need something so perfect in a material thing for me to be happy!
When I read this post it kinda made me feel at ease that someone out there is experiencing the same type of thing and needs help. I've never told anyone about this I battle with this everyday.
For instance I just brought a Gucci necklace which cost 2k I know any woman would love a Gucci necklace right. But no not me cause I put fingers prints on it used a plush cloth see that I put used ^plush cloth^ in detail just to make myself at ease that I didn't scratch it. Now I keep thinking about have I scatched the stone? And I've just brought a gemstone cleaning cloth on Amazon! Thinking it would be perfect again even though I know it is but somewhere in that little mind of mine that voice is telling me it isn't. And I should have just left it and not touched it cause now it's bugging me and now I'm not thinking its perfect!!! And that I'm annoyed with myself ,I need help help!!! Anyone has a solution to stop this thing I obsess over or even more the same problem then please feel free too write something be much appriated!! And also I think mine started at a young age too but as I'm getting older I'm 23 now it's just getting worse and worse!

I’ve joined up JUST to respond to this post because, unfortunately , it describes me to a tee. I’m like this with clothes, bags, shoes. For example, I bought a pair of new sandals last week which arrived yesterday. I opened the box, took a quick glance to assess the condition of them, closed the lid. This is where most people would stop in checking the quality of a new purchase. Instead, I take out the shoes, notice a minute flaw, and pick and pull at the flaw until it’s a bigger problem in trying to ‘rectify’ the situation. Today, I’m at work but obsessing about it. I ripped up the receipt for these sandals because I’m so sick of this behavior, but the idea of keeping a tainted pair of shoes rips me up inside. I own barely anything clothes because I’m too afraid of the discomfort that comes with buying new clothes.. so instead of wear the same things day in and day out. Logically, there is nothing really wrong with these sandals still.. and sure I got them in the sale! I feel like I’m living in a nightmare. I just want to me normal and be able to buy and enjoy things. I love the idea of having clothes. And I makeup because this is a less risky purchase for me. I’m at a loss as to what to do, what techniques I could employ myself to help. I’m glad to know there are people like me out here though, it’s reassuring. HELP!!!!!

I am glad I finally found some people like you that have the same thing as me. I have searched on internet and found nothing. A long time ago when I first moved into my house there were small black blemishes on most of the walls in the house from the previous owner who just moved out. So I thought I would paint over them and even got the exact paint to touch up at a paint store. So I touched up all the blemishes in the house. Next morning I woke up and the blemishes were gone but the paint I used had a shiny white over the dull white on the walls. So I took a can of harsh paint remover and I set it on my counter and after I opened it some dribbled down the sides and ate a ring around the can on the counter, now my counter was ruined. So then I called paint store and they said that's cuz the guy who sold paint didn't tell me the paint on the wall was sprayed not painted. So then my ocd kicked in and I had my counter top replaced and they screwed up did wrong measurements so they replaced it and then I saw small nicks in it and they came and replaced it again. Then I saw the painters moved out the stove and fridge and left scratches on the floor, I got new flooring. It was a HUGE mess and lots of anxiety all starting from a few small smudges on the walls. I don't know where this fear of perfection comes from but it is not fun to go thru anymore. I fear new stuff getting ruined from myself and from others coming into my home. I have had many contractors come fix stuff and made stuff even worse. Has anybody found anything that works? I know its just material stuff and you cannot control it being perfect forever but its like I cant enjoy it fully when I know there are flaws in it, and not so much huge flaws but the small ones. I too sometimes bring back stuff if I see a small flaw in it or stand there for long time sorting thru the stack to get the most perfect one. Its absolutely insane.